I'm actually being serious for once!
Okay I think everybody here understands anger, sadness, and fear, but you know...
This is going to be the strangest thread ever, might be even out of place but...
What are some of the things you miss and/or love about your family and friends, yes the JWs ones. Because only people who you love like hell can put a deep cut into your chest like that. And no I don't think this is a Jw apologist kind of thread, at least I don't think so because acknowledging the horrible stuff people do to you (us) doesn't mean that we have to forget about all the positive things and good qualities of a person.
Like my mom for instance. I know I talk about her like hell, about her being so brainwashed, homophobic, and insane sometimes but...
Oh my god, like there is not a woman on this earth so strong in my eyes. We used to be really close and I think that's why it hurts. It seems so crazy and you're gonna think that I'm really messed up for saying this, but I WISH at times she had treated me like crap, like dirt the way some of you were treated becaue I could cut her loose, but she is a really great mother. She is really sweet and is very loyal, emotional in that good sense that she can easily feel empathy for a person. And while she goes on and on and on about all she did wrong to make me gay, eh I always looked at it that she was really amazing to the point that I never needed another woman in my life 'ause, yep. Had my moms.
I know, so gay....
But that's how I feel about her and that's what I keep thinking about when I feel like leaving, like cutting them off the same way they will do to me at times. Like it won't hurt as much if I do it first and take away their power to do that. So that's why I put up with her crap at times because I know she's a good person and she knows I am. We just had really huge hurdles in our way and I don't know if we'll ever get through them but... even if we don't I'll always love her.
So what are the qualities/things/ or stories you wanna share about the JWs in your life that keep you up at night to tears wondering if you'll ever get it back, who are the ones that have brought you here hoping that they'll one day see the light?
And yes, I think this is a good thread because it shows all the lurkers out there that apostates and the Internets aren't full of crazy angry people... okay that is a complete lie, but that we have a reason to be what we are and we're actually human beings who love our JW relatives and friends even when they drive us up the wall and to tears.
Get out your hankees ladies and gentlemen!
(and to what caused this post, I watched a Lifetime movie- there was nothing else on! Leave me alone, Don't Judge me!)