I am a successful fader. My family pretends not to see my 'worldly' deeds, and I do not criticize them for their false beliefs. It feels like I'm walking on a razors edge on my hands, backwards and in the dark. Their razor's edge is blunt, wide and straight-forward, but is more dangerous to my mental, spiritual and physical well-being. I come to JWD for the bandaids of kindness and fellowship only other ex-dubs can provide. [email protected]