saywhat, I know how you feel. I went through those emotions myself. My mom and I were very close and she was a fun person. We would go on canoe trips, hiking, camping and day trips around NYC. We would take road trips together. We enjoyed each others company. She and my significant other would love to compare "BFD" stories and it used to drive me nuts. But I loved her very, very much. Then I got a letter in the mail. "A line drawn in the sand" blah blah blah....
Shock and horror don't even describe how it made me feel. She would not take my calls anymore. I don't know if the WT$ decided to come down hard on her or what but, she has been shunning since around 1997. I was DF'd back in the late 70's so it really came out of left field for me and I spent many nights in tears over it. Incomprehensible! It still hurts as I type this.
The tears turned to anger and I said a lot of hurtful things to her. I threw away all my litterature, (yes I still read the junk) and I threw away my green bible that I had since I was a kid. Then I threw away all the letters and cards my mom had sent me over the years. I wanted to have a funeral service for her because she was dead in my eyes. I remained angry for a very long time. But, I learned here that my anger was misplaced. I have forgiven my mom for what she has done to her family. She is convinced she is showing us love. I blame the WT$ now and I am angry at the society for what they have done to so many people.
So yes, I do have many happy memories of times spent with my mom. She was fun, funny and believe it or not free spirited. Due to the WT$ there will be no more happy times for us together. I cherish the memories of days gone by and accept the fact that I will not be adding more fond memories. What we had is gone. They took her away.
Love ya.
Will
