I don't make friends too easily myself.
I am over 50 now, and that makes it even harder. Still, I have a few friends, or at least good acquaintances in the area. I also have made some real friends on this board over time. Some of them I have never met in person, only on the phone. Others I have met, but don't live in close proximity to, so we are distant friends.
We need a few people in our lives. At least most of us do. I am half hermit, and half regular guy. I hide the pain that it causes me most of the time, that I have no history with anyone but my family now. Still that is a lot too.
Hang tough buddy. I would love to get to know you in person. Distance is the problem.
You are a good person - life outside of the horrible religion we left is tough at times. But it is worth it, and with time, this phase of healing will pass somewhat. Time is our friend in the matter of healing.