Welcome to the board...
I am a JW with 27 years in and around the org. I am on my way out of the org, but I am doing the slow fade. It is the best way, but it is very hard.
I am glad you weren't disfellowshipped for looking into your religion...many have been, and there are too many stories like this to think that ALL of them could be lying. Why would any of these people lie anyway? On the other hand, it ain't over till it's over, is it dear?
in case you don't know it, some one to 1.5 million JW's have left this organization in the last couple of decades; over 30,000 elders have stepped aside in that same time period; and a staggering 70+% of the children of JW's do not become JW's themselves. amazing, isn't it? What do they know that we don't?
I don't like doing the JW thing anymore where one can get bogged down in doctrine. Jesus said that we would know his true disciples (not his true org, mind you) by the love they have for one another; not doctrine, size, growth, money in the bank or real estate acreage (all JW claims, but not biblically based claims).
Does the Governing Body show love for the Witnesses? Did they show love for the Malawian brothers when ordering them not to get a 25 cent party card? What about love for children when ordering their parents to forbid blood transfusions? And than bragging about it with their pictures on the cover of an Awake magazine? Did they show love for the Greek brothers, ordering them not to do alternative service and so 300 of them are now in Greek jails? What about the brothers in the Russian countries? Was it love to order the brothers there to dish out literature saying everyone except JW's are going to die die die...and then of course they are going to be persecuted!! All of them are. And where is the love for the women when elders were ordered to disfellowship them for not properly resisting a rapist; where is the love for the children when they are molestation survivors?
And as for love, during the fall of the NYC towers, 2500+ Bethel workers pulled the shades and watched 15,000 people stagger across that bridge. Live forever with these people? Where's the cliff I can jump off of FIRST, thank you.
And all of these are man-made doctines.
And as far as 'the light getting brighter'...go read Ellen G White's writings way back in Russell's time, and you will see that it is just another doctrine that Russell stole from the SDA's and the Millerites.
I could attack many of the other JW claims but there is no need...I'm sure others will rise to the occasion. I have this to add...no other religion sends convicted child molesters to peoples's doors...some before their criminal cases are even resolved.
For reference, www.ajwrb.org and www.silentlambs.org are run by JW's in good standing in their congregations (for now). Go read these people's stories; feel their pain and then tell yourself this is 'the love' Jesus spoke of.
And www.freeminds.org adn www.watchtower.org have the elder letters and UN documents if you must get into doctrine...but I was convinced long before getting to that stage.
There is a world that the Governing Body does not want the JW's to see. A world where people of all religions can get along for periods of time; a world where JW, ex-jw and community members work together to promote positive change. And it is working.
And one last thing. If 'apostates' were everything the JW say they are, there wouldn't be any Kingdom Halls left standing. If the world were the place JW say it is, there would be no JW's left alive in it.
Pray more, go out in field service more, read the Bible more...it will fix eeeeeverythiiiing....<gag>
If I wasn't still 'in' I wouldn't be this angry. Sitting through this CRAP three meetings a week is a little more enjoyable than sawing off one's own FOOT!!!
Dungbeetle...so much dung, so little time...