Welcome, Mrbloo!!!
Also from the UK, despite appearances to the contrary!!
Death or rather the fear of death is the tool that the WT society uses to keep its slaves in check! Most non JWs spend their lives working towards the different stages of their lives and gradually accepting that, if all goes to plan, when they are very old they WILL die!!!! It is after all inevitable!
The WT society holds out the impossible dream to its slaves and that is what keeps them captive.
When I first faded from the bOrg, realising that I was going to die was the first thing that hit me! Believe me, time helps you to adjust and get your head round the fact that you will die and your loved ones will die. In the end, we all lose everything and leave as we came, with nothing!
But who is to say that we don't live again, aren't reincarnated, don't get to sit on a cloud and spit on the people down below?
Death leads to the next great adventure! If we get to move on and live again, well cool! If we don't, well we won't be bothered and will never know anyway! Make them most of the adventure we have now! Live and love every day as if it were your last! We're all 'terminal' it's just we choose not to understand that.
The day I lost the fear of death was the day I started to live!
I hope you too will find that peace in time!
Good Luck MrBloo!
The only thing to fear is fear itself!