I'm so glad I found this forum, because you guys honestly know what I'm going through. It's really stressing on a person.
I think my dad needs to understand, finally, that tough love never works with me. It only makes me want to rebel like a little kid.
My dad is middle-aged. He is normally quite dramatic, but it usually never ends up with him crying like that. But you have to understand, if it really was the end of the world (which, to him it is), and he really was going to watch his kid die, then he's not being overly emotional. Unfortunately, there's nothing I can say to convince him that it isn't the end of the world.
I'll be honest, I am blaming this one on that damn tract campaign. He made me and my SO go over there late one night, after the meeting when they got the tract, and handed us one of them. He then proceeded to sit us down and make us read it, paused, and asked us how we felt about it. He was so nervous that night because he thought this was going to bring the end. He and my mom were partying and drunk throughout the 70s, so they were unaware of this same tract back then. I wasn't born yet, so they had no reason to be so JW-ish. Now that they are older and have kids, they are freaking out.
He is acting like I don't know anything about being a JW and that I need to give it a second shot, this time paying more attention. But I've been one all my life, and I DO know what real JWs do and think, and they are so depressed and annoying that I don't want to have anything to do with it.
This stinks. Should I fake it and go along with it? That would be unbearable, but would having it my way and watching them panic be worth it? I hate the guilt trip thing. They are my parents, and I do owe them one for having to go through the trouble of raising me, but I can only to so much before it ruins my quality of life. It's not like I asked to be born. If they wanted to have kids, but couldn't stand the thought of them having their own viewpoints, maybe they should have had an abortion when they were pregnant with me.
Geez, I can't wait to get the followup phone call. "So, have you thought about what we talked about? Will you start studying with Sister Vomit now?"