I know that thousands of you have gone through the same thing I'm facing but right now it doesn't help. I know that some of you have faced much worse - losing family through the blood issue or having to deal with abuse and I know that in comparison my problems may seem not so severe but as bad as it sounds knowing all that just doesn't matter right now.
It started yesterday and there's no stopping it, the official shunning. One member of the family right now will see the month end with me losing my sisters, brother and my Mum.
I love them and I know that in a sense they are victims too but I just cannot reach them. The situation is filling me with a heated anger I didn't know I was capable of. There are individuals - elders - who have taken control of my family and who hold all influence over them. I feel I could pound them into the pavement and leave them bleeding!
I so hate the Watchtower right now. Hatred, real stomach thumping hatred. And I hate them for making me feel like this, it's not the man I was or the man I want to be.