God this is choking me up as my husband and I have been married for 39 years this Oct. 14th.
We were going through a divorce because - well I won't get into it.
We got back together again and are now after 6 years getting marriage counseling. We'll see how it goes.
Yeah. That honeymoon phase doesn't last forever. But you still want some spark. I can appreciate that.
I hope you find the life that you want to live - with or w/o a woman.