Long story, will get to the end. Did it all as a JW, married a pioneer, both multi generation witnessese, DA ourselves 15 years ago, shunned by all our families and life long friends. Lost her six years ago to cancer, she made a last minute return for the "love" of her family, so I lost her too. Her father, who was the only dad I had known my adult life passed away last night he was 95. The pain is I cant go to the funeral and it brings home the whole asbense of true Christain love that organization is lacking. I always knew there was no natural affection, when with one breath they say have a enought love to die for your brother, but then cast him out if he makes a human mistake with the next breath. I had never felt that blockaid in returning to Jehovah before, first blocked by the ones on earth that are supposed to love you then blocked by the organization. From my experiense on this web site I see so cleaarly WHY th WTBTS does not want anyone who has been OUT back in. We pose too big a threat to thier little kingdom. But it still hurts, it was a life time for me. The mistrust of everyone but JWs that brainwashed into you has kept me pretty much to myself. Those still in that organization that dont shun DAs are the ones I still associate with, carefully giving them the knowledge and courage to get out.
Thanks had to get that off my chest.