I havn't posted for a little while having gone back into a lurking mode, for no other reason that I've not had any opinion or thought to post recently.
But I felt I wanted to do an update on a post I did about some Valentine flowers I received. I discovered who this lady was and despite still having a lack of self worth (like thinking why would this beautiful woman be interested in me) I plucked up the courage to speak to her and we hit it off from the get go. She is such a gentle, warm and kind person - in fact it brings a tear to my eye just thinking about her lovely qualities. We both have some baggage that we carry with us into a new relationship so right from the start we wern't afraid to say and discuss any potential issue's, this culminating in my admiting my lack of confidence and my past experience as a JW and then life after walking away from it and how it affected me. Although I deffinately feel a have turned a significant corner about that part of my life recently, I still tend towards a slight negative view of myself. Part of me wonders if some of that has to do with a lack of a close mate that I can pour my heart out to and have a bit of a 'pep' talk with, but in any case this wonderful person I have met has been like a refreshing tonic, I feel an incredible boost by having her around me and I know it has awakened in me a desire to give of myself in order to meet her hopes and desires as she has me.
So there you have it I just wanted to share my joy over this happening.
Take care all