My childhood friend is still in the IC and isn't doing well at all and I can't put it out of my mind. I think of him all the time and the good times we had growing up. I almost cry when I think of him and what he's going through right now, in fact I'm am crying, we were so close as teenagers, like brothers. You usually only have one close friend like this and I would hate to lose him now. Give him your good thoughts.
Sorry to hear about your friend, my thoughts are with you both.
You aren't the only one who tries to find comfort in the arms of a bottle, most of them are called alcoholics though. I rather imagine a nip here and there is good for you when you just need to numb out cuz the pain is so hard. You take care Ken.