Had i known an online exchange would fire me up so much i would have jumped in years ago. Thanks to all for the response..
I feel the need to give more of my story since i'm getting so much advice (but i'm pumped about the movie idea so i'm anxious to get to that).
Anyhoo, first off, i'm already disfellowshipped. When i was 17 i was a regular pioneer,and my pioneer partner and i both had aspirations of Bethel. We were such morons, letting all those old fogies pat us on the back and pump us up to go work for free for four years. But you know the deal --we thought we were great and gonna be great. All we had to do was shoot for Bethel and the whole congregation treated us like heroes. Anyway, due to some congregational politics (a few of the elders were jealous of my dad) he got to go and i didnt. However,he had been up quite a few skirts and my nose was clean. I didnt tell on him (a good friend and a bad witness), and during my bitter years i looked back and thought that was the way Jehovah repaid me for not telling on him (NUTZ). But i fell away,and went out into the cold, hard world all by my lonesome, and had a blast. I just figured i would die when armaggedon came and i didnt care. I started chasing tornadoes and before i knew it i'd been on the road for 7 years. Somewhere in colorado i stopped living in hotels for a while, got a laptop and got online.By now i was ready to brave "apostate" material, and, with my new laptopi got a new education. AND BOY DID I GET PISSED. Turns out the whole thing was a dog and pony show and we were all chumps. So now i figured there was no reason for my family to shun me, since the ones who originated the program were full of it. I thought my dad would be quick to jump on the side of real truth, since by now my brother was disfellowshipped and he could have his sons back if he would just listen to me. But it was not to be-- i did not prepare myself well enough, we argued more than we discussed, and i just came off as bitter and ridiculous (but not quite coined an apostate). Since i was alone and away for so long my dad thought i was just confused and needed encouragement. But i accepted the fact that he was SERIOUSLY brainwashed and i would have to get really creative in order to get through to him. It has been 6 more years since then,and ive talked to him maybe 6 times. But there's been a new development..
I had started chasing storms again, but this time with a new perspective. I had been through the fire with the validity of the Bible (if the WTS was lying maybe the whole Jesus thing was a hoax too) and I came to the conclusion that the prophetic, archaelogical, and historical evidence was too synchronistic to be denied. I still don't think we as a human race have even come close to understanding the words in red, but i prayed and hoped anyway. It was then i began to constantly turn over the objections my father might have in my mind, and it was then i started realizing that even though this was a monumental task, it was not impossible. I was like a pioneer again-- constantly preparing myself for any conversation that i may ever have with a witness. I avoided getting in their face , however, as it could ruin any remaining chance i might have of getting through. Then, two years ago, i met a girl somewhere in the midwest and settled down. (Ironically, she was raised a witness too, but i did not discover this until we'd already fallen for each other.) Then she got pregnant (can you see where this is going?) My dad now has a granddaughter on the way. He wants to re-establish association, of course.
Not too long ago he told me that if worked up all my objections and wrote them down, he would go to the library, find reasonable answers for me, and we could get past this stalemate. Of course he wants me to come to meetings again, BUT I ALSO HAVE ONE MORE SHOT TO DEPROGRAM HIM. And thats where i am.... hope this wasn't too boring, I feel kinda stupid talking about myself so much--but thats over now and i want to talk brass.......
I have a lot more to say and i'm anxious to chat about my movie idea more--but i'm running out of room so i'll just post another page.......