DB said :
it would be a leap of stupidity for me personally to be ever involved in another religious group and to blindly accept all or any of which they spoonfeed
Looking back, it is my naivity that really bothers me. How could I have not questioned, or researched more? How could I have blindly followed everything they said? How could I listen to them when they told me that it was in my sisters best interest that I shun her? I would love to have a religion and REALLY dive into something, but I don't and never can trust that I am not naturally gullible.
I see myself now as having the capacity for gulliblity and therefore fiercely protect my freedom of thought, it is like I am so afraid still that I could lose it.