Hi, I am new to the db ,in fact this is the very fist time I've given voice to my inner conflict . Let me explain, i am a JW lifer ,now at 44 I feel it is time to begin some serious thinking for myself .This past summer I began searching the forbidden land of internet "apostate" sites , and low and behold people that had some of the very same feelings and thoughts I've stuffed down for many years .Okay some things I've read are a bit whacked, but alot seem to be honest sincere people sick of stiffling their own consciences. At times I think I am going to go crazy......I still attend meetings most of my family are jw and my poor children have embraced this religion because of me . I sneak around on the net when no ones around afraid of what they will think ....God isn't that sad ! I don't have a clue to what i am going to do I am slowly trying to fade with out upsetting my family to much . I can't bring myself to go door to door anymore though , think that would be to hypocritical . If you don't mind I need a place to vent and I thought your sight would be a safe haven.Thanks for any input ,support, or advice I can get ! Hopefully I will be able to post more details of my troubled mind soon. thanks.........
Seeking some normalcy maybe alittle joy....is that so wrong
by troubled mind 32 Replies latest members private
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rebel8
Hi & welcome. You are not alone--IMO the most important thing for your emotional well being is to be able to talk with others who are going through something similar. The reason I left too is because of the lack of joy. I realized I did not want to live such a sad lifestyle and had no desire to live out eternity with JWs, who I had grown to dislike. It was not about "immorality", it was just that I wanted to be free of sadness (not necessarily be happy, just be free of sadness). It wasn't until much later I discovered the sinister things about the org.
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TheListener
Welcome troubledmind. You have found the exact right spot for venting and learning. There are many here who share your circumstances. Including myself.
I can tell you one key to a successful fade, patience. A good fade can take a long time. It all depends on your family and how quickly they adapt to the new you.
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TheListener
Oh yes, I wanted to add this little advice a good once gave me as my fade began:
"The road you are starting out on can be a very long one. There will be times when you will have friends to walk with, but there will be many many times where you will be walking alone. Since you'll be alone make sure that you like yourself. If you don't like yourself now find out why and work on those things. At the end of this road, what's important, is that you are a happy, well adjusted, active member of society who can contribute and possibly help others as they walk on their roads."
Good luck with your journey
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daystar
Welcome to the forum. I'm probably one you'd consider more "whacked" than anything. But that's due to our very different perspectives, I'm sure.
However, no matter our differences here in the board, most of us have one, very significant, thing we share. That alone makes us brothers.
Here is to you finding your Way.
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95stormfront
Welcome to the board........The most therapeutic thing about this place is it provides space for a person, like youself, who's about to explode from stuffing instinctively negative things about the org to save it's face, to come and vent without fear of the repercussions talking to someone who'll go back to the elders and tattle on you for brownie points.
Rest assured, what you're going through, there are people here who've been through it and will lend an impartial and understanding listening ear.
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JamesThomas
Welcome, TM. You will find much understanding and support here.
Hope to hear more from you soon.
j
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mouthy
I sneak around on the net when no ones around afraid of what they will think ....God isn't that sad !
Welcome to the board. Yes it is sad in a FREE country you have to sneak around when you consider it was Jehovahs Witnesses that fought for freedom of religion in this country ( Canada) Yet Jehovahs Witnesses is the only religion to MY knowledge in Canada - that cannot excersies that freedom....
You will feel all mixed up as you prepare to "fade" but remember you COULD lose ALL your loved ones as many of us have,,. THAT is one thing the Witnesses learned ( but twisted it to the Organization) " Just as in the Scriptures when some came to recognise JESUS as the way truth life -they were thrown out of the Churches,,,,same with the WT if you ever mention your love is for Jesus - NOT the Watchtower they will MAKE all your love ones Shun you????Why??? Because they dont want you to KNOW the REAL truth .... Not by works least any should boast- it is by FAITH you are saved ((((HUG)))
Faith in God..... We dont need man to tell us what we must do & dont do -Conscience is the greatest teacher if it is NOT contaminated by the Watch tower -
Emma
Welcome. You've found a safe place. You can take all the time you need to figure things out and we'll be as supportive as we can.
Emma
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forsharry
WELCOME!
You have found yourself a safe haven here...read read read! There is a lot of information and so many of us know how you feel and can lend a helping hand, a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on.
"The road you are starting out on can be a very long one. There will be times when you will have friends to walk with, but there will be many many times where you will be walking alone. Since you'll be alone make sure that you like yourself. If you don't like yourself now find out why and work on those things. At the end of this road, what's important, is that you are a happy, well adjusted, active member of society who can contribute and possibly help others as they walk on their roads."
True, true, Listener!