I just want to be a normal person again.

by toby888 13 Replies latest jw friends

  • Mysterious
    Mysterious

    Learning to not believe in stuff you no longer believe in is a long process. Ive found that deliberately exposing myself to such things, participating in intellectual debates and doing readings on the subject that bothred me has helped immensely. Discussing it with a close friend or the board is certainly not to be overloooked either.

    I find when you encounter a hang up it helps to ask yourself. WHY does it bother me, WHAT about it is causing me to react in this way and is that in fact RATIONAL. If it's not rational get a piece of paper and write down all the thoughts and fears you have on the subject as a sort of mental association, don't hesitate and dont think about your answers. Re-read it when you are done and think about whether there is any merit to these or if they are perhaps aspects of your life you want to let go of. Reasoning through it every time it comes up really helps a lot more I found than being disgusted by my reaction and not probing it any deeper.

    I commend you on taking a positive and tolerant attitude, it's a big step in the right direction of making yourself into the kind of person you want to be.

    As far as feeling isolated that is natual. High control groups have a "Socialization" process. On exiting these groups it is normal to feel the need to be re-socialized into the real world. It is a long process and not always an easy one but it will come, just dont give up on it. Also consider that everyone has different needs for people in their lives. Some are happier with a few friends, others require being surrounded by many more people. Think about what is right for you and perhaps work on just involving one more person in your life at a time. Hugs.

  • Gretchen956
    Gretchen956

    Welcome, Toby. For me being a JW was all about social isolation. I always felt like I was on the outside looking in on life. Now I participate full on. Its great making your own informed decisions about life and living it to the full. You'll find your path!

    Sherry

  • trevor
    trevor

    There is no such thing as normal.

    But to be free of religious influence. Free of peer pressure. Free of all the influences that have tried to shape you - that is the goal. But to achieve that, you have to step outside the box. You have to be prepared to walk alone.

    You have to be prepared to be abnormal. Ah - there’s the rub!

  • oldflame
    oldflame

    Toby,

    It takes time to get over all that we went through, be patient, stand your ground and find the truth inside yourself. You will heal but it will take time. It took us all sometime to get over the pain brought on by the society but we all have endured. Once we healed we found ourselves to be just as normal as the next person. Good luck and I know you will find a peace with yourself.

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