Does anyone out there understand how i feel?

by TimothyT 35 Replies latest social relationships

  • TimothyT
    TimothyT

    Hi everyone,

    My name is Tim, im 23, from the UK, and im currently a JW!

    Ok... to cut a long story short... I love serving Jehovah but ive begun now to embrace my sexuality as a gay man.

    Although im still attending the meetings, praying to Jehovah and trying my hardest, i can no longer lie to myself about my sexuality.

    I have had enough of feeling depressed and confused now - Its killing me!!!

    Does anyone else know what i feel like? If so please give me some ideas and advice as i cant go on like this much longer!

    Thanks, Tim x

  • Mad Sweeney
    Mad Sweeney

    You will get some good responses here. I don't recall the details about who is who but I know there are others here who have struggled just like you.

    Also, I think there are some personal accounts on freeminds.org that might help you.

    I'm straight and married so I can't empathize as well as others might but I can still encourage and wish you luck. One thing I would tell you that I am certain of is that Jehovah isn't angry with you. You are in NO DANGER of holy retribution from an angry god, so rest easy on that count.

  • nugget
    nugget

    Tim, there are many here who have had issues with being gay within the JW paradigm. It is hard because this religion does not allow you to acknowledge your sexuality and will only support you if you choose to conform to it's world view. I don't know if you have family in the organisation or if you are baptised, both of these things will impact on how things develop for you.

    Suppressing how you feel can be disasterous since you may make choices to conform that you later regret. Now is a good time to think clearly about how you want you life to develop and work towards your goals. JWs will ask you to make huge personal sacrifices to stay in good standing I would urge you to be sure that this religion is worthy to make these demands of you. Take time now to review this religion objectively, if it turns out that they are not truth then you need feel no anxiety about exploring your true feelings and building a life that incorporates the things that make you you.

  • Lozhasleft
    Lozhasleft

    Hello and a big welcome from another Uk member...I'm sure you'll find support and advice here.

    Loz x

  • Amelia Ashton
    Amelia Ashton

    Southern England here.

    Pleased to meet you and welcome to the site.

  • Heaven
    Heaven

    Welcome TimothyT!

    If you base yourself on a foundation of love, then you have no worries. I use this as a guide throughout life. As a teen, I found the WT$'s agenda to be one not founded on such a base.

    Do you believe that what the Watchtower defines as 'serving Jehovah' to be accurate and true? If not, how do you define this?

  • mamalove
    mamalove

    So do you want to stay a JW, and try to remain quiet about your sexuality? Or do you want to be your authentic self and distance yourself from the religion. Because you cannot do both.

    You are so young, find out the truth about the religion and then see how you feel. This site has excellent information! Best to you!

  • pirata
    pirata
  • DanaBug
    DanaBug

    ((((Timothy))) and welcome to the forum!

    I have had enough of feeling depressed and confused now - Its killing me!!!

    I felt the same way but for different reasons. There are people here who've been in your situation. Maybe an important question to ask is if God wants you to feel this way over something you can't change.

    Check out these threads http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/bible/205480/1/Does-Genesis-19-condemn-Homosexualityhttp://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/beliefs/204270/1/Defending-homosexuality-as-NOT-a-choice

    Josh's story http://www.freeminds.org/sociology/sexuality/growing-up-as-a-gay-jehovah-s-witness.html

  • boyzone
    boyzone

    Hi Tim

    I am in the UK and my son who's 27 is disfellowshipped for being gay. He has been through alot of emotions dealing with his sexuality and fully understands how confused you must feel. I will PM his facebook details to you if you wish to talk to him.

    There's also a website for gay JW's at http://www.gayxjw.org/ I'm sure they would offer you a great deal of support and understanding.

    But don't despair honey, it'll be ok if you remain true to yourself. You can't go on living a lie like this, its destroying you! Take courage, you're not alone....

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