Dear Friends,
This has been a distressing 48 hours. I cannot sleep because I do not have freeness of speech. Dear JW friends have happily told me the latest about the end being so very near, perhaps to be precipitated by the clergy's rage over the new tract. It all begins on Monday. I yearned to tell them about JFR's purposely stirring up trouble and then drawing attention to the poor victims of mindless persecution. All to revive slumping book sales. Just previous to this joyous march-into-hell-for-a-heavenly-cause flurry of excitement, I received news that a dear friend was df'd, ostensibly over the art issue. It went beyond the local level. The tipping point, however, was an anonymous and blasphemous statement I was sent that bragged: "One of us has reached the Heights and we can see the world, Satan's world." In the letter the WT and adherents were mercilessly derided and mocked, and joy was claimed over the death of children denied blood. Much was said on "Our writing and designing the illustrations of books and magazines," notably 'Our beautiful KNOWLEDGE book.' Asked was the question, "do you think this was placed here by accident, you [expletives deleted]? Do you think that this is the only time we have done this? Placing our Master's image in your minds and your childrens' minds through the Watchtower and its publications?" Whoever "They" are, they rejoice over their being anonymous, invisible and unstoppable. There is more, too much more.
I am sick that my beloved friends and family are going out, starting Monday, and possibly, perhaps not probably, inviting misery upon themselves for Jehovah, they would think. As many of you have already said, however, the majority of the tracts could wind up in the trash. My mind for the last year has been engaged in intellectual pursuits, vis-a-vis the search for truth. The events described above have put me into an emotional dive. Even if that Satanic statement were a hoax, the 99% I did not include out of respect for you and space constraints, bears far too heavily and directly on my research specific to WT art. I fully understand how all this may sound, yet I believe JWD to be a forum that allows the freedom to say what we know or simply just feel. Whatever the implications of all the above, ultimately our Father and His Son will prevail. I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed. Thanx and peace and love.
Yours truly,
CoCo