Grunt,
I'm fairly new, so I haven't read much of your stuff...but loved your post! Thanks for sharing!
I consider myself a fairly young Christian. I believe that everyone has a place on this earth to accomplish SOMETHING in particular. I'm almost 30 and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Haha! But I believe that somewhere, somehow, I will make a difference in the life of someone. Because of my personal experiences with the WTS, I do believe that I have something "important" to do within my life regarding JW's. I don't know what it is, I don't know when it will be. But I believe that sometime, God will use me to enlighten somebody that needs to be enlightened. I have waited patiently for a JW to come to my door or stand on a near-by street corner. Not yet. But like you...I will continue looking. In the meantime I will do whatever I can to prepare myself for that time.
I hope you have more opportunities opened up to you. Your courage is admired and envied!
Christian love,
Billygoat