As some of you on the board knew I was expecting a baby, I feel I should let you know that things have not worked out for us.
When I went for the 20 week ultrasound scan last Thursday, severe problems were found with our baby's internal development. Only one kidney was detected, and it was very enlarged and polycystic. There was no long term hope for the baby at all; if it survived to full term it could only live for hours at most.
As all previous tests had shown no problems at all, this was a bad shock.
Last Sunday morning I went into hospital to be induced, and our little boy was born at 4pm on Monday afternoon. He was perfectly formed, just tiny (less than 1lb), and we were able to spend some time with him. It was a huge comfort to me that my husband Grant could stay with me all the time I was in hospital.
Before we started trying for a baby I felt that our life together was really wonderful, and if we had a family together, that would be the icing on the cake. If we didn't have a baby, we would still have the "cake". Although this is a very sad time, we do still have all that we had six months ago. In fact, I feel that I have more, as I am more sure of the absolute love and commitment of my husband than I have ever been.
Once we have had the post-mortem results (which will take some weeks), I hope that we will be able to try again.