For those of you that don't know... Dad thought I was an apostate, WW3 was started, elders were involved, bla, bla bla. I didn't speak to him for 1 1/2 months because I was hurt in the way in which he treated me.
Now, I'm ready to deal with what happened and actually talk to him about it... This is about what I want to get across:
I understand you took the actions you did because you were afraid. I know you did it because you love me and you were sincere about wanting to help me. I have to tell you though, what happened didn't help. It hurt a lot. I have questions. I always have and I always will. That is the way Jehovah created me. Whether my thoughts and ideas are wrong or right, they should be respected. I should be loved. I know you tried to give me answers, if they don't make sense to me or cause me to have further questions, then I shouldn't get attacked personally. I will wait on Jehovah to make things clear to me.
Dad, I want you to know, when I went to family members about a year or so ago with questions, everyone got mad at me and thought I was an apostate. This was a huge stumbling block with me regarding the truth. Actually, the biggest stumbling block that I had ever faced. It raised a million red flags in my head. I felt that the issue should have been simply addressed, that the truth should just be easy and I just wasn't putting something together correctly. I kept asking myself, why couldn't they simply answer my quesion? I didn't think it was a huge deal when I asked it. Then, when it was answered, the answer made no sense to me. Because of this, people got more mad. I just thought, "why in the world would my own family get mad at me simply because I don't understand something?" This made no sense to me.
The bible teach book encourages us to ask questions. What if some questions come up that we don't really understand something the society is trying to teach us? Can't we simply just ask and then get the question answered? Why does that have to be such a big deal? I've been told by family members that "it's the type of questions that I ask" or that "they are worried I get these questions from apostate sites". This doesn't make any sense. If they were so worried that of where I was getting my questions from, why couldn't they simply ask in a loving manner. I would have had no problem showing exactly what it was that made me ask a particular question. And furthermore, how am I supposed to control the types of questions that come into my head??? I just don't get it at all.
Since this has caused problems, I don't feel that I should go to family members regarding anything of a spiritual nature. I feel that it has caused way to many problems and my heart can no longer bare the burden of this type of pain. I do love you very much and I hope you can understand why I feel this way.