The only time I enjoyed it was when I met someone in the field that was willing to challenge me - to ask all the difficult quesitons - and when I couldn't prove them wrong....an alarm bell went off, but not very loudly at first.
was anyone actually proud and happy to be spreading the word(ministry)
by looloo 23 Replies latest jw experiences
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ex-nj-jw
was anyone actually proud and happy to be spreading the word(ministry)
NO
Because my family was brought up in it there wasn't really a choice
Exactly, there was no choice. If you didn't go out in service you couldn't go skating, to the movies or anything else that may have been fun!
Stupid cult I hated it then and I hate it now!
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Tired of the Hypocrisy
When I was a kid I hated it.Being separated from my folks so they could work with the po or some other EXPERT. I did have fun with some of the other kids, since we would just go and knock and run away!! But that was only once in a while. Buuuuut I got baptized and took it seriously. I aux pioneered for several months off and on and had planned to go to beth-HELL. I even went to the field alone because no one else was going. Then the bs started to mount up and I had so much I could not take another bit of it and I lost my interest and zeal.
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yumbby
For about two years when I was trying to find meaning in life, I totally immersed myself in field service and meetings. I'd actually cry if I missed a meeting. I realize now I was just using it as a crutch, to belong to something, to feel like I had the answers. I'm disgusted at how self righteous I felt. YUCK.