Welcome fellow newbie,
On the subject of prayer, I was totally hung up on 'whatever you pray in harmony with God's will, he will answer.' I was so disillusioned time and again to pray for a Bible Study, and so many other things that didn't appear. Wasn't it in harmony with God's will. For me, prayer was like sending a letter to Santa.
Ah, parenthood. I was there and paid rapt attention for the "Responsible Childbearing in the Time of the End" DC talk and WT study. My sister shocked us all when she and hubby had my niece. She is now in her twenties, attending college, and a gem. I, on the other hand, pioneered, went to Bethel, and now live in the land of disenchantment.
Your mother is right about this being the time of the end... it is the time of the end for the WTBTS.
This is the easiest time for the 'fade' into inactivity. The NBC story is a biggie. Go to MSNBC.Com, search Jehovah's Witness lawsuits. Print out the text of the story. DO NOT DO THE "DIRECT CONFRONTATION" - "LOOK WHAT I FOUND" WHILE I WAS BROWSING THE SATANIC INTERNET. Instead, at an opportune moment, tearfully announce that "While I was out in service [or with workmates, or around anyone else] this was put in my face and..." You might say, "they said that all you JWs are no better than Catholics after all." Or you could say "they asked if I pay money for the crimes of pedophiles." Or you could say, "they asked if I was a pedophile that Watchtower was hiding!" etc.
Let whoever it is console and comfort you. They will certainly understand if you are too upset to attend meetings or go in field service. Let others know your trauma and how difficult service will be. If the elders get on your case, ask them how long they've known about these things. And what direction mother organization has given to her children. (Hint: NONE! WTBTS has sent no information to arm the elders. Speaking as a still 'spirit anointed appointed yet imperfect" elder... We have nothing but mindless "wait on Jehovah", "trust Mother", and "it's all worldly, satanic lies". We have been so plugged with pornea/non-pornea trivia that we can't think on our own.) Just one at a time add new questions like, "If the Society doesn't admit guilt, why did they pay so much money? How much was the lawsuit?" Try and make them say it from the article. Another time ask, "Isn't the Society going to sue NBC?" Just use the questions one at a time. Get creative.
No, you aren't a liar for this, you are merely stating a hypothetical situation. I'll share info on 'untruth' another time.
How am I doing for a sneaky secret leaker?