I have been trying to reconnect with my fleshly family for over a year now, since I left the jws. For some reason, I find it extremely difficult. I don't find them to be very giving or caring people. Don't get me wrong, I love them, but something just doesn't click.
My family is pretty crazy at times. They love to talk about each other, in a gossipy kind of way. One sibling won't talk to another and most of the family has been pulled into taking sides. I have tried to stay neutral, but they just won't accept that. I am constantly pressured into taking sides.
There are nieces and nephews that are invoved with hard drugs, stealing and who knows what else! They have been in and out of prison. The parents always bail them out, and so on it goes. The problem is, my witness family uses this to say that the society is right and "worldly" people are all bad.
There was a major crisis last night that I can't give details on because of being a fader (I am beginning to hate that word). I left and havn't talked to any of them since. I think I will just have to pull back some and look elsewhere for companionship. I don't know what happened to the family I knew 30 years ago, before becoming a jw. Sometimes I think I have been tainted by the wall I put up for so many years.
Is anyone else's family just plain crazy?