My Disfellowshipping

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  • silentlambs
    silentlambs

    My disfellowshipping

    As with anyone associated with Jehovahs Witnesses the worst possible news anyone can have is being df. It means a loss of everyone and everything you have known all your life. When I first came forward to the media with my allegations of abuse cover-ups in the organization, one thing I made clear to reporters was that they would df me for speaking out on this issue. You see I played you Watchtower, I knew they were so arrogant that they would not let me tell them what they were going to do. So they had to have their control and not do anything. Bad mistake Watchtower. Your stupidity allowed me months and months to gather evidence and make a stronger case that I ever would have if you had df'd me in the first two weeks. But I depended on your arrogance and stupidity, not to mention a PR Department that operated like the gang that couldnt shoot straight.

    First they call me a liar in the congregation, bad move boys, I got it on tape. Then the PR tape of my father, just plain stupid, even reporters were calling me amazed at how evil they were. Then came to sanctions, I documented each one through correspondence and requests for apology, they of course ignored them. Thank you very much, you are proving your lack of Christianity. But perhaps I am leaving the absolute diamond behind, that is, your denial of any wrongdoing. With 30 stories maybe it was just a few bad eggs, with 100 stories perhaps it was just some elders out of line, but over 5,000? When you lie with 5,000 victims accusing you, you make a complete ass of yourself. Thank you JR Brown.

    Think about it, what person has ever been df with such torpedoes broad siding Watchtower. The New York Times, Sunday when I have my appeal hearing, CNN the day before my df, and a nice article locally all about it in the morning. Watchtower, how stupid do you have to be to get that much bad PR? Shoulda backed off, but like a spoiled brat you wanted it now, so we gave you both barrels. Does anyone see what has happened here? Remember when the uprising that occurred in China? The liberal side started to get a strong following and appeared at the verge of bringing democracy to the entire country. What happened? It gave the conservatives an excuse to completely crush all liberals. To this day there is no liberal movement with substance in China. So to with Watchtower, when the issue of a problem with child molestation first surfaced I had many insiders who contacted me and offered help. They instantly saw the problem and in an effort to save the organization they offered insights and assistance to help things move forward. They said they would protect me. Perhaps it was a combination of the above along with liberal protection that allowed me to last for seventeen and one half months without being df. Well, a change occurred at the end of April much like what happened in China. The conservatives used silentlambs as an excuse to squash the liberals and any chance of reform in the organization. Why do you think they are asking for 1,000 to leave Bethel? Who do you think 90% of that 1,000 are? It is the liberals, they are being kicked out wholesale and by doing so the last chance for the organization to save itself. The battle is over, Jaracz won.

    All Jehovahs Witnesses will now "not be going beyond the things written" and if anyone says different, you will be disfellowshipped. Remember China did not go out of business, they just lost the only chance they had at being a better government. So to with Watchtower, they could have protected children better, they could have had more compassion, they could have shown more love, they could have made it easier to be a JW. Not any more. They will sacrifice everyone in the organization to follow the bidding of a spoiled brat known as the Governing Body. To hell with the children, we just don't want anyone telling us what to do. So it goes

    So tonight, I went to the meeting. I called every reporter I knew and asked them to come and one did show up, just enough to make them nervous. She sat up front across the auditorium and I asked an elder to provide her with a song book. Which he quickly complied with, don't want to stumble any prospective members. I was able to briefly explain how the meeting was going to proceed as no one else volunteered. I guess I could have counted my time.

    I was spoken to by two elders after I looked them in the eye and said something to them directly. Everyone else looked away and refused to speak even if I said something to them. Could it be someone did not keep confidentiality? I was there about five minutes early and stood up toward the front of the auditorium the rest of the congregation stayed in the back. The PO looked at me with a dirty look and laughed, I took my finger and pointed straight at him for about five seconds and gave him a big smile, and I ain't taking no crap type look.

    Then the meeting started, I had my song book so I sung nice and loud. All those around me were trying to drown me out, so they were screaming at the top of their lungs. It was nice to finally get the friends to really sing out. Then came the school, I was nice and even looked up the scriptures. Everyone who gave talks was nervous as cats, noticeably shaking and glancing over my way. It was like they thought I was going to pounce on them or something. At talk number two I went back to the bulletin board to catch up. We are getting a new CD. It is called WT cd 2001, isnt this 2002? They said it would be coming soon so I guess it is not ready yet. The letter was dated at the end of June. Nothing of note other than I clearly noticed the molesters name was not anywhere on the board, not even a TMS part. So it appears I might be having a little effect on his life anyway, especially since I told the entire world when they started using him again. He had a nice little group around him all visiting and making him feel welcome before the meeting. After thirteen months out, not one person acted like they wanted me there. Hey, what can I say, I guess the spiritual paradise does not like people who are in the media.

    The reporter came back and we stepped out side to do a bit of an interview as we waited for the halfway point. Then they started to sing as Sheila drove up with the digital camera. Did I say we got Pictures?

    http://community.webshots.com/album/47148865uPbeds Enjoy...

    Each part on the meeting in the TMS was prefaced by comments about the worldwide work and how these talks were being given all over the world. Nice PR for the reporter, boy were they laying it on. At the announcements they finally said we would now like for brother elder to come up to the stage. When he got up there, I stood up. He then started talking about the CO visit last week and made a motion to pay expenses. I sat down. I thought maybe later.

    Nope they skipped it.

    Now for any elders out there, everyone knows you make the announcement during the "announcements," why did they wait? Did the have fear of man? I went out and talked to the reporter from the Paducah Sun. I suggested they were holding it till last, hoping she would leave or they may wait till another meeting to keep me guessing. I told her they were playing games and they just blinked again. She called her editor and he gave her thirty minutes more.

    We went back in and I got to thinking, I am tired of these silly games. Lee Stockwell had the last part on the meeting and since he has made an ass of himself on several occasions I thought I would wait for him to get up there. What was I going to do?

    From this point forward we have decide to make a new guideline for anyone disfellowshipped for abuse issues.

    We make our own announcement.

    When Stockwell got on the stage I stood up and turned to the audience and said:

    " Tonight they were supposed to announce that I was to be disfellowshipped. I object to this announcement, I object to this proceeding. I have broken no biblical law, I have broken no law of the organization. The Governing Body has ordered my disfellowshipping to prevent my presentation of evidence that proves them to be lying hypocrites. I am now a silentlamb, as are the thousands of abuse survivors whose lives have been ruined by Watchtower Policy on child molestation."

    Stockwell tried to out yell me at one point, but shut up. Sheila was taking pictures and that froze them from grabbing me as they knew we would get it on film. I had my say and walked out. When I got to the back Stockwell announced, "William H. Bowen has been disfellowshipped."

    I yelled, "You got it!"

    I then walked out the door. It was a sense of exhilaration and relief. I finally got to say to the congregation what I had wanted to say for two years. I did nothing wrong.

    The reporter sat on the carport for light and copied my statement to the congregation. They were coming to the window and peeking out, giving me angry looks. I just smiled and waved while Sheila took a few more pictures. They really looked small at that point

    The reporter said be sure and buy a paper Friday, we said our good-byes. As I started my truck with loud pipes, I guess Satan entered into me for a moment, I drove through the drive through, kicked it in neutral and floored it as I coasted through. Was that disrupting the meeting?

    When I got home Sheila and the kids were waiting with champagne and a nice family hug. I now wear as a badge of honor, being disfellowshipped for standing up for children. I find no shame, no guilt, and no dishonor for what I have done. If everything with silentlambs ended today I would believe it to all be worthwhile for the assistance and hope given to so many. You can stand, you can speak out, and take back what they robbed you of. Your self esteem and knowledge you did nothing wrong.

    Joe Anderson also was disfellowshipped tonight. He followed the same tack. He mailed out letters to everyone in the congregation except the PO. The letter informed them of his disfellowshipping and the reason why, along with the original letter he wrote resigning. So when they made the announcement everybody already knew. Joe did not attend, there was no point to it.

    The conservatives have won, the organization will go on, but it will be a harsher crueler organization driven by soldiers without conscience and scared rabbits to do their bidding. The worst part is the damage done to children till Watchtower Policy finally changes.

    silentlambs

    I include Joes letter below:

    Dear Folks,

    I am writing to let you know about my situation in the congregation and my feelings on the matter. You might also say this is a letter telling you goodbye.

    I've been associated with Jehovahs Witnesses for over fifty years and my interest is still in Jehovah and his purpose. What has always impressed me was the honesty and truthfulness of the organization, and for changes the organization has made in the past to benefit the congregations. I want to add here that I continue to have only love for all of Jehovah's Witnesses, including the elders and the people at Watchtower headquarters, many of whom Ive known since the 1950's.

    Recently, I wrote a letter explaining why I resigned as an elder and sent it to the Watchtower Bible & Tract Society regarding changes that I believed were needed in their child sexual abuse policies. I gave each elder in the Manchester Congregation a copy of the letter to let them know what I was doing. Let me say here that this has nothing to do with doctrines, etc., but about procedures that could impact safety of the flock, Christian love, and elders doing the right thing in behalf of the membership. However, because of writing this letter, at a judicial hearing a few weeks ago, I was accused of undermining the confidence of the brothers in Jehovahs organization.

    I have enclosed, for your observation, a copy of this letter so you can get a sense of what's going on. As you know, this type of thing is always kept secret from the congregation, consequently, everything appears to be going peacefully. Normally, I concur with the organizations procedures regarding privacy for there are issues that do not involve the entire congregation so its best to respect confidentially. However, I perceive that keeping quiet about sexual child abuse in a congregation is a totally different situation. This criminal activity has to be exposed to protect us. Appropriate handling of sexual abuse accusations and subsequent information to the congregation does not undermine the confidence of the brothers in Jehovahs organization. On the contrary, keeping child abuse a secret does undermine the confidence of the brothers in Jehovahs organization.

    To give you examples of deviant sexual proclivities kept secret within the organization that have served to undermine confidence of the brothers in Jehovahs organization were the dismissals from Bethel since 1991 of two Governing Body brothers, Chitty and Greenlees. Chitty was homosexual and also an alcoholic. He returned to , where he was from, and the Watchtower Society provided him support and an apartment to live in. He was not disfellowshipped.

    Greenlees was a known homosexual when he lived and worked at , Watchtowers Canadian Branch Office and his appointment as a member of the Governing Body caused considerable shock to the staff there. He was dismissed from Brooklyn Bethel in the mid 80s while Barbara, Lance and I were there and sent out as a special pioneer. Later, informed people at told us that Greenlees was not dismissed for being gay, but rather for molesting a young boy. He was not disfellowshipped.

    In my resignation letter I referred to a young lady who was with the Manchester Congregation some years ago, who came forward as a result of the Tennessean newspaper and identified several brothers in our area who molested her as a child. To say the least, I was shocked to hear her story, and then when the elders were informed when I met with them, two of them corroborated some of her claims.

    I believe because of the nature of pedophiles that all of us should know about their past offenses, which would warn us of the potential harm that can come by keeping this a secret. There are over 23,000 , Canadian and British cases of confessed and accused molesters filed at Watchtower headquarters, many of which have never been turned over to the authorities. If you take into account that by Watchtower Society requirements there has to be two or more victims before some action is ta by the congregation against a molester, this would mean there are many thousands more victims than 23,000 molesters. In fact, one Jehovahs Witness in molested seventeen children before he was imprisoned. He still is not disfellowshipped. Presently, there is one confessed molester now attending the congregation and another former elder who confessed to molestation, who moved to a nearby congregation last year. But Watchtower policy prohibits us from telling you who they are. In the Manchester Congregation, there is only one elder who has small children in his care who knows who these men are, consequently, he can protect his children, but you who have children are not permitted that right to know. Is that fair? Or loving?

    Why can't we write the Watchtower Bible & Tract Society with our concerns, questions, and doubts about things that effect us? But as you can see from the action taken against me that you're not free as you think. See James 1:25. In addition, never forget that James said in chapter 4, verse 17 that if you know whats right and not do it, its a sin.

    If you write to Watchtower with compliments, you hear nothing. But write something that they term negative or divisive, your letter is sent back to your home congregation and the elders investigate. If you dont repent then you will be disfellowshipped. Since my Bible-trained conscience does not allow me to repent of what is perceived by the Watchtower Society as undermining the confidence of the brothers in Jehovahs organization from what I said in my resignation letter, I will be disfellowshipped.

    To see what the Bible tells us about Christian freedom read 1 Peter 2:19-21 and Hebrews 3:6. Notice too that 1 Cor. 10:29 asks why should it be that a persons freedom is judged by another persons conscience.

    My desire is not to separate you from the congregation and the many friends you have. Im merely letting you know what is going on, which Ive always wanted to do. There is a lot more to say, but for now I can only say I hope changes will be made because this issue is causing an immense amount of pain and suffering for victims and their families, including my own family. Moreover, the worst effect of all is that they leave the organization. Its very sad.

    In closing, I send my best wishes and will miss your association.

    Christian love,

    Joe Anderson

    Edited by - silentlambs on 16 August 2002 2:49:25

  • Big Tex
    Big Tex

    Wow.

    You've got big brass ones, Bill.

    What you've done means a great deal to a great many people. Thanks.

  • seawolf
    seawolf

    Big Tex. You took word-for-word what I was going to say right out of my mouth.

    jesus said you will be known as my disciples if you have love among yourselves. There isn't any at the halls and the few ppl that did have it are all being kicked out/forced out/leaving, etc.

    Edited by - seawolf on 16 August 2002 2:15:12

    Edited by - seawolf on 16 August 2002 2:17:22

  • DakotaRed
    DakotaRed

    Kudos, Bill, well done. I wonder if the elders went home and cleaned their underwear after???

    Lew W

  • sunshineToo
    sunshineToo

    My goodness! My heart is still pounding.

    Bill, all I can say is, "WOW!" It must had been so intense. I was getting so nervous as I was reading your post. I am very sorry for what you are going through now. I know that like many other jws, you have sacrificed your life to be "a faithful Christian". Today I met someone. To my surprise he didn't know anything about the Silent Lambs. He didn't know much about the JWs, either. Well, he knows more now. Bill, your work is growing, and is not going to go in vain.

    Bill, I heard that today is your birthday. I posted a reply on that thread. Take this day as your new beginning, new birth or your Independence Day. You are not bound by any cruel rules any more. You are free now to help more survivors/victims. No one in his right mind would think you are an evil person. What you did at the meeting is quite understandable. I understand.

    Bill, you did what you have to, and what you ought to do. I know that. I'm sure all the silent lambs know that, Jesus knows that and I'm sure Jehovah God knows that, too.

    Bill, stay strong. Yes, have some champagne. You Do deserve a pat on your back and lots of hugs.

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    And here are hugs for Joe and Barbara for their courage.

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    Thank you all for your work, courage, and sacrifice.

  • TheOldHippie
    TheOldHippie

    I don't have many comments, brother. I have communicated a bit with you thru e-mails previously and offered my assistance, and I have always been, am, and will be, one of the "liberal brothers" of whom you are speaking. While an elder, I was a liberal elder, and I continue along that path now. I am not a "liberal" when it comes to theology (soul, trinity, hell etc.), but am one when it comes to chronological speculations and especially when it comes to these matters with which we are dealing now, namely legalism, authority, how different matters are handled, the many puffed-up elders and COs etc. If they could only read Greg Stafford's book and see what he points at; he feels as I do, that we love these people, our brothers, care for them, wish nothing more than the very best for the entire brotherhood, that we hold the organization in extremely high esteem for what it has done to bring out Bible truths, honouring God's name and the idetity of Christ etc. - but that we are deeply saddened and concerned about what is now going on. Those of uf who are liberals and keep on inside, wish no harm to anyone, no revolution, just that ordinary decency should be the standards when people are dealing with each other, just that one should allow each and everyone the right to follow his or her conscience in certain matters. I stepped down as an elder after a couple of years of constant debates because we invited our disfellowshipped daughter to visit us, had her stay with us for periods, visited her and her boy-friend who later became her husband, took care of her when she had nervous breakdowns, tookspecial care of her after she had asked for reinstatement but had not yet been reinstated - and in this period they continued to call her "cancer in the family", although she had asked for reinstatement. She was cancer the day before she was reinstated, because she was even that day technically disfellowshipped. But the next day, after the reinstatement, everything was OK. I don't see how one can regard a repentant believer as cancer the day before the reinstatement is done. Anyway, I resigned as a protest, a loud and vocal one sent to many. I just write this to tell you that although out paths are different, they in principle have much in common.

    Some of us keep quiet and continue; we keep our heads down and outwardly comply to much, but there are paragraphs in the Watchtower study or in KM inserts which we never comment on or reply to when questions are asked, never in public, never to others. To close friends yes, but we keep quiet to others.

    Some of us continue. And we wait. And wait. We have patience. Our happiness, our zeal is gone, broken by harsh procedures by an organization which looks not at people but at hours used. But we see that beneath that are great Bible truths which are so prescious to us that we can endure much to be able to stick to them.

    So we continue. And we wait. because we know that our hour is coming, and it is coming perhaps sooner than one might expect.

    That's why I continue, and wait.

    I send you my love, brother Bowen; I hate what has happened, and I send you my love.

  • The Alchemist
    The Alchemist

    We know, You know and God knows you did the right thing. God bless you Bill !

  • Trauma_Hound
    Trauma_Hound

    Bill you rock! You are brave! Glad I got to talk to you briefly today, I'll get working on the PSA, and I should have your video's to you within the week. :)

    Love ya guy, keep kicking they're asses!

  • Reborn2002
    Reborn2002

    You are amazing Bill.

    Simply amazing.

    That took courage to stand up in the middle of the JW meeting and say your peace.

    If not for the reporter I am sure you would have been a victim of mob action.

    Take solace in knowing THEY are the wicked ones. You did the right thing.

    May this serve as an example for all others who read this and are disfellowshipped or silenced.

    Stand up for yourself. The Watchtower possesses no power over you unless you allow it to be so.

    ROAR SILENTLAMBS!

  • LyinEyes
    LyinEyes

    WOW!!!!

    And pictures............. this is exactly the way I pictured it to happen, with you walking out with your head up and proud. I am proud to call you brother, so are all the silentlambs out there, and the many more that may get help from some dear soul still in the JW, who will follow your lead as a pioneer in standing up for the victims. I know not all JW's are evil..... so hopefully , by what all you have done Bill, this is not by anymeans the end of your work. It is the beginning, the openning of closed eyes, ears and hearts. Most JW parents really love their children and now they will at least be on guard to watch their precious children. Even when I was a faithful JW, my kids came first, I knew about child abuse from some that it happened to and I was always careful with my kids. I learned to trust no one. Sad but the way it has to be sometimes. Even if they try to stop you, the issue is snowballing and can't be stopped. You started that Bill, and you are a hero to many. Denny and I disassociated ourselves and it was announced last Thursday night. After all of this in the media about the child abuse cover ups, I am glad to be free from an organization that is so full of lies, and deceit. I hope you find your place in your new life being d/f , it hard to leave behind your whole life's work, but I think you will continue to fight for the cause,,.. because there are many out there that are listening to you..............Stay strong Bro. Bill.

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