Many times I would feel so silly when distributing (Selling once upon a time) those magazines.
I would think to myself. SO the Almighty god gets Watchtower to publish these magazines and made us to distribute these to save people. And people should take them, read and get converted else they would die in Armageddon. Wouldnt god have a better plan ?
Perhaps those silly and rational thoughts later blossomed into an Apostasy in me. I commend myself for that