i am currently a jw but am having a bit of difficulty with it at the moment.
i have always been a bit 'badly inclined' i got married at the tender age of 17 (crazy!
) to a bit of a rebel (a jw but a rebel all the same!
Thanks so much to everyone. I feel like I can breathe again now! Sometimes it feels like an elephant's sitting on your chest with all the crap you have to carry round. I sometimes wonder if its just me that feels like this or if there are others at the hall who feel like it too but are just good at hiding it!
Whatever happens I'm very grateful to you all. It feels wonderful to be understood.
i am currently a jw but am having a bit of difficulty with it at the moment.
i have always been a bit 'badly inclined' i got married at the tender age of 17 (crazy!
) to a bit of a rebel (a jw but a rebel all the same!
Thanks everyone for your replies, they're very much appreciated. It kinds of adds to the complication when I tell you I have a 2 year old son doesn't it!
Half the reason I am having problems with being a JW is that it suddenly dawned upon me that there's a hell of a lot I don't even know about my own religion and I go around knocking on people's doors proclaiming that I have the truth! I think a hell of a lot of people brought up as JW's don't really know half of the 'deeper things'. Its my own fault I know, I should get my head down and get researching but I just don't feel like I have the energy for it at the moment. I have broached a few questions with my husband but was greeted with a look of horror crossing his face as if I'd turned apostate then and there!
Can I just ask though, does anyone feel any concern about all the war scenario at the moment - doesn't it make you think that there really is an armageddon coming?? And one more thing that troubles me ... I know its been mentioned elsewhere about the persecution we get being an identifying sign etc etc all the internet attacks etc and I can see the point that witnesses aren't encouraged to have their own sites and so that is why there are so many more anti than pro pages. However, what about the fact that the bible says that the real identifying mark of his people are the ones that preach from house to house. What's the gen on that??
i am currently a jw but am having a bit of difficulty with it at the moment.
i have always been a bit 'badly inclined' i got married at the tender age of 17 (crazy!
) to a bit of a rebel (a jw but a rebel all the same!
I am currently a JW but am having a bit of difficulty with it at the moment. I have always been a bit 'badly inclined' I got married at the tender age of 17 (crazy!) to a bit of a rebel (a JW but a rebel all the same!) but it all went tits up and to cut a long story short we got divorced. I moved back home with my parents and continued plodding along and a couple of years later I got married again (5 years ago) to a 'model' witness.
I have come to the horrific realisation that I have jumped from the frying pan and into the fire. I had such a desire to please everyone that I have married a man mainly on the grounds that he is a model JW! Don't get me wrong he is lovely to me but we have absolutely nothing in common and I don't love him (maybe as a friend but that's all).
So here I am. At the crossroads. Keep the peace and keep my friends and family or make the break, get disfellowshipped and get shunned by everyone I know!
How have the rest of you coped making the break?? My parents are very important to me, I don't know if I can live with not seeing them again.
p.s. Sorry if I sound like a total whinger!
