For everyone who posted losses on here.....HUGS..... ! This is a rampant problem in the organization. One sister in a nearby congregation was an elders wife for many years. She had some emotional problems but always tried her best. She ended up committing suicide in 1982. My ex has tried to commit suicide on more than 8 occasions. In many many cases, I feel, witnesses have that feeling that they can never do enough. My ex would be far from spiritually uplifted when the circuit overseer came. When he did come....the pioneers are put on a high pedestal and everyone else is considered weak or whatever. She would nosedive into a major depression right after his visit. Some, I believe, feel deep down, or even subcounsciously that they will never make it to the "new system". Another subconscious theme is the repressing of anguish over the "eventuality" of armageddon. Billions slaughtered, children, babies, the elderly, along with rest of the non-witness world. This certainly makes for a frame of mind that is conducive to depression, hopelessness etc. So many that hve committed suicide because they slipped up in their conduct and couldnt face a judicial committee. The one elders wife that I mentioned in the begining had her name besmirched. They said..."oh the apostates must have gotten a hold of her". Nothing about the years of selfless service. Nothing about the years and years of being a wonderful mother. It is amazing how this is so prevalent and yet they advertise that they are the happiest people on the fast of the earth. If that is happiness...give me the opposite. ......................................Taz