I'm in a similar boat as you, christopherceo. I was practically raised a JW (parents converted when I was 8 yrs old), but never, ever felt adequate (just wanted to be like everyone else, and like my 3 other brothers, who studied briefly, but never became witnesses). I studied for many, many years with some dude that I could hardly relate to, and who kept drilling things into my head like "being destroyed" and that I was either "for or against Jehovah" (no in-between). I never got baptised because I never thought I could live up to the dedication, and utimately up to Jehovah. My parents are relatively "easy-going" JW's who love me and my other siblings very much (but deep down, I know they wished I take a stand, study again, and get baptised). Now I'm in a situation where I'm totally in love with a young lady who is not a JW. I really hope that when the time comes, and we are both ready, we can get married (she still has another year of college). She is respectful of my beliefs, and has no intentions of changing hers (she's a christian and goes to church with her mom on sundays). I have many questions. I don't want to (and never really wanted to . . .) be a JW, but are there any other churches that I can check out? (Unitarian?) Is not being a JW mean that I'll be "destroyed"? (that term freaks me out!!!!) what if we get married and have kids . . .what can we (or I) teach them to believe? I've got more to say, but just wanted to get some feedback! I'm scared, confused, and occasionally severely depressed over this. I love this girl very much, but I'm unsure about my future.
zephaniah
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what to believe now?
by christopherceo inthis is my first time posting here or on any ex-jw forum but i want to know if anybody else is not sure what to believe anymore.
paradise on earth sounds great and it was drilled into me for 11 years, it's just kinda hard to shake.
what about armageddon?
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