Posts by wildfire

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MS WILDFIRE NEEDS SOME LOVE AND CONCERN ,,,,,,,PLEASE

by wildfire in

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i really can understand the meaning of hate now........ i truley hate what the cult of the watchtower has done to me and my family.... my son was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 20,,,,(his uncle on his dads side also had the disease around that time ))) as some of you know he ended up in jail and a prison term because of things he did while in his schizophrenic state....all the while he was disassociated from the witnesses ,,,so he received no help from the loving elder body ( of vipers)....even when he was in jail,, an elder came to study with the lost ones... and because he knew of my sons situation would not allow him to comment at the prison study.....

but he goes faithfully and sits by himself in his tattered clothes in the back....as we all know the drill....some how he gets back in.... i am devastated..as i have 3 children who never will go back because of their sadistic ,, annointed father and stepfather......who molested his own daughter.....( another horrible story)l its hard for me to write ,,, i hope you will put up with me ,, those of you who know me and even those who dont...this is my therapy... i must write it out....well as it goes he is not welcomed back.. its all for show,,,he cant stop smoking....and so he goes off his meds and is living in the streets...with no help or support from the brothers ,,,a term i use very loosely....he missed the district convention,, because no one could find him and then ......they find him to corner him like a rat (knowing fullwell of his mental condition ) and they disfellowship him......the anger and rage that i feel...is uncontrollable at times......i hate ,, i hate ,,,, i hate so much of what they did to me and sooo many other ss ......forgive me ....this freaking cult needs to be destroyed... once and for all,,, and i will not rest until i rescue my last child from its grip.......( i have one daughter whos 18 that is still in)))) i am cryingso hard now its hard to type,,thank you for hearing my story,,, its just a very small part of what me and my family have been thru ...thanks for listening and peace to you my dear friends...

wildfire

DEDE,,, MY SWEET ONE ,, SINCE I MET YOU,, I FEEL LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN YOU...YOUR STORY JUST BREAKS MY HEARTIN MY HEART YOU WILL BE WHAT KEEPS ME FROM TAKING MY OWN LIFE THO I HAVE TRIED THAT ROAD ....I FOUND A SONG BY A NATIVE AMERICAN SINGER NAMED BILL MILLER HIS CD CALLED SPIRIT RAIN IS JUST THE BEST EVER ,,,,,, PLEASE CHECK IT OUT ,, YOU WILL APPRECIATE HIS SIMPLE TRUTH IN HIS SONGS SO MANY OF US HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT. LET ME WRITE THE LYRICS OF A SONG NAMED ""LOVE SUSTAINED"

DID YOU LEAVE BEHIND THE TANGLED MESS,

HIDE THE LIES YOU WONT CONFESS

LEAVE BEHIND THE DREAMS

THAT DIDNT COME TRUE.

DID YOU COVER UP YOUR BATTLE SCARS???

ARE YOU BACK AT HOME, HAVE YOU GONE TOOO FAR

ARE YOU AT THE EDGE, OR HAVE YOU FALLEN OFF

I'M NOT COMPLAINING, OF THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE KNOWN

IT HAS LED ME DOWN SOME LONG ,, DARK ROADS

BUT IM STILL SUSTAINING, THE LOVE THAT YOU SHOWED ME,

SO MANY YEARS AGO

YES ,,I WAS A FRIGHTENED SOUL,,,WHEN THE MADNESS CAME AND TOOK CONTROL

SOMEHOW WE SURVIVED, WE MADE IT THROUGH

SO MANY THINGS I CANT EXPLAIN

SO WASH ME IN THE DESERT RAIN, HOLD ME IN YOUR ARMS

THE WAY YOU USED TO DO..............

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MS WILDFIRE NEEDS SOME LOVE AND CONCERN ,,,,,,,PLEASE

by wildfire in

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friends

i really can understand the meaning of hate now........ i truley hate what the cult of the watchtower has done to me and my family.... my son was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 20,,,,(his uncle on his dads side also had the disease around that time ))) as some of you know he ended up in jail and a prison term because of things he did while in his schizophrenic state....all the while he was disassociated from the witnesses ,,,so he received no help from the loving elder body ( of vipers)....even when he was in jail,, an elder came to study with the lost ones... and because he knew of my sons situation would not allow him to comment at the prison study.....

but he goes faithfully and sits by himself in his tattered clothes in the back....as we all know the drill....some how he gets back in.... i am devastated..as i have 3 children who never will go back because of their sadistic ,, annointed father and stepfather......who molested his own daughter.....( another horrible story)l its hard for me to write ,,, i hope you will put up with me ,, those of you who know me and even those who dont...this is my therapy... i must write it out....well as it goes he is not welcomed back.. its all for show,,,he cant stop smoking....and so he goes off his meds and is living in the streets...with no help or support from the brothers ,,,a term i use very loosely....he missed the district convention,, because no one could find him and then ......they find him to corner him like a rat (knowing fullwell of his mental condition ) and they disfellowship him......the anger and rage that i feel...is uncontrollable at times......i hate ,, i hate ,,,, i hate so much of what they did to me and sooo many other ss ......forgive me ....this freaking cult needs to be destroyed... once and for all,,, and i will not rest until i rescue my last child from its grip.......( i have one daughter whos 18 that is still in)))) i am cryingso hard now its hard to type,,thank you for hearing my story,,, its just a very small part of what me and my family have been thru ...thanks for listening and peace to you my dear friends...

wildfire

thank you all for your loving and heartfelt wishs, i really do appreciate your concern.... i am alittle tipsy right now ...but my heart is in the right place ......we all have horror stories from the CULT, i WRITE POETRY SO IWILL PUT ONE HERE FOR YOU MY FRIENDS ,, I THINKYOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE MEANING

THE LESS BROKEN NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THE MORE BROKEN

BUT WHERE DO WE FIT IN???

A LOOK, A SIGH, A CHANCE TO BEGIN

TO SEE THE PAIN INSIDE

TO CARE WITHOUT COMMITTMENT,, TO COMMITT WITHOUT A CARE

DARE WE SAY WE WILL BE THERE, TO CALM OUR BROTHERS FEARS

DON'T LOOK AT ME , FOR YOU WILL SEE

THE MASK I WEAR IS REAL

BUT JUST REMEMBER FOR ALL ITS WORTH

THE BROKEN NEED TIME TO HEAL......

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MS WILDFIRE NEEDS SOME LOVE AND CONCERN ,,,,,,,PLEASE

by wildfire in

jw
friends

i really can understand the meaning of hate now........ i truley hate what the cult of the watchtower has done to me and my family.... my son was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 20,,,,(his uncle on his dads side also had the disease around that time ))) as some of you know he ended up in jail and a prison term because of things he did while in his schizophrenic state....all the while he was disassociated from the witnesses ,,,so he received no help from the loving elder body ( of vipers)....even when he was in jail,, an elder came to study with the lost ones... and because he knew of my sons situation would not allow him to comment at the prison study.....

but he goes faithfully and sits by himself in his tattered clothes in the back....as we all know the drill....some how he gets back in.... i am devastated..as i have 3 children who never will go back because of their sadistic ,, annointed father and stepfather......who molested his own daughter.....( another horrible story)l its hard for me to write ,,, i hope you will put up with me ,, those of you who know me and even those who dont...this is my therapy... i must write it out....well as it goes he is not welcomed back.. its all for show,,,he cant stop smoking....and so he goes off his meds and is living in the streets...with no help or support from the brothers ,,,a term i use very loosely....he missed the district convention,, because no one could find him and then ......they find him to corner him like a rat (knowing fullwell of his mental condition ) and they disfellowship him......the anger and rage that i feel...is uncontrollable at times......i hate ,, i hate ,,,, i hate so much of what they did to me and sooo many other ss ......forgive me ....this freaking cult needs to be destroyed... once and for all,,, and i will not rest until i rescue my last child from its grip.......( i have one daughter whos 18 that is still in)))) i am cryingso hard now its hard to type,,thank you for hearing my story,,, its just a very small part of what me and my family have been thru ...thanks for listening and peace to you my dear friends...

wildfire

I REALLY CAN UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF HATE NOW........ I TRULEY HATE what the Cult of the Watchtower has done to me and my family.... MY son was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 20,,,,(his uncle on his dads side also had the disease around that time ))) As some of you know he ended up in jail and a prison term because of things he did while in his schizophrenic state....all the while he was disassociated from the witnesses ,,,so he received NO HELP FROM THE LOVING ELDER BODY ( OF VIPERS)....Even when he was in jail,, an elder came to STUDY WITH THE LOST ONES... and because he knew of my sons situation would not allow him to comment at the prison study..... so when my son served his sentence,,,, he felt compeled to go back to the kingdumm hall...i am crying that is all he ever knew and I feel sooooo guilty.... as thats all i knew as the story goes I try to convince him they will never take him back,,,,without taking his very soul.... but he goes faithfully and sits by himself in his tattered clothes in the back....as we all know the drill....some how he gets back in.... i am devastated..as I have 3 children who never will go back because of their sadistic ,, annointed father and stepfather......who molested his own daughter.....( another horrible story)l its hard for me to write ,,, i hope you will put up with me ,, those of you who know me and even those who dont...this is my therapy... i must write it out....well as it goes he is not welcomed back.. its all for show,,,he cant stop smoking....and so he goes off his meds and is living in the streets...with no help or support from the brothers ,,,a term i use very loosely....he missed the district convention,, because no one could find him and then ......they find him to corner him like a rat (knowing fullwell of his mental condition ) and they disfellowship him......THE ANGER AND RAGE THAT I FEEL...IS UNCONTROLLABLE AT TIMES......I HATE ,, I HATE ,,,, I HATE SO MUCH OF WHAT THEY DID TO ME AND SOOO MANY OTHER SS ......forgive me ....this freaking CULT NEEDS TO BE DESTROYED... ONCE AND FOR ALL,,, AND I WILL NOT REST UNTIL I RESCUE MY LAST CHILD FROM ITS GRIP.......( I HAVE ONE DAUGHTER WHOS 18 THAT IS STILL IN)))) I AM CRYINGso hard now its hard to type,,thank you for hearing my story,,, its just a very small part of what me and my family have been thru ...thanks for listening and peace to you my dear friends...

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For Country Girl

by Valis in

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friends

hey sugar...i hope you are alright...you know that we're around for you...especially when you are having a hard time.

the things is when you find yourself wishing for what one might call a normal family, you've got to make your own, otherwise you will feel unloved.

now, we aren't exactly normal *lol*, but we love you and i don't think anyone wants to see you feeling so bad.

wildfire

hey MY FRIEND CG....A DEAR SOUL WHO I TRUSTED MY LIFE WITH...RIDING TO THE DALLAS APOSTOFEST,,,,,AND BACK.... I really think our lives are soo busy ,, we all dont take the time to stop and smell the roses .. or gardenias....or watch a sunset...or escape to a quiet place, to refresh our spirits... I am listening to bill miller a Lakota Indian who plays guitar and flute and really brings me back to my native land,, untouched by the ravages of commerce and greed..... ( cant you tell i have been to the mountain and now i am reborn an INDIAN PRINCESS.....) Hey dont forget we have a date set for tomorrow,, my friend..... take care brenda here

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Day 11, What's So BAD about Dakoda's Bad Lands.

by jst2laws in

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friends

yeah that's us again.

another blow out, again on the front, but his time i was driving.

but just three miles from the bad lands state park .

wildfire

hey gang this is WILDFIRE AND YOUARE TRAVELING THRU MY OLE TERRITORY... i met you two in dallas member ,,, i used to live in bismarck ndak. and well lewis and clark thought it was great 100 years ago....and now i am in austin,,,, its a good thing you are traveling there now and not in the dead of winter that was the main reason i got the hell of out there.. the winters are killers...merciless.. at thati really do love the black hills of south dakota... the scenery is great....and the native people have cornered the market for gambling casinos... PRAIRE NITES CASINO WAS CLOSE TO ME.... how far are you all going.....these idiots still think custer was a hero......ummm noooo he was an egotistical maniac who got what he deserved......so guys take care and watch out for the bears and the wolves... they are sacred to the indians....love ya WILDFIRE.....

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I am celebrating!

by notperfectyet in

i just got my annulement papers in the mail.

it took me 21/2 years to get an annulment.. for the ones who were there for me, i will be there for you always.. for the ones who took care of this person.

please keep taking care of him, he needs it.. i am very happy!!!!!!!!.

wildfire

HAPPPY ,,, HAPPPY,,, JOYYY,,, JOYYY..... THERE WILL BE CELEBRATING IN THE STREETS,,,,PROCLAMATIONS FAR AND WIDE.......NPY IS FREE... IN THE IMMORTALL WORDS OF MARTIN LUTER KINGGG SOMETHINT... FREE ,,THANK THE LORD I AM FREE AT LAST ;;;;AND I HAVE SEEN A VISION AND THAT VISION IS THERE WILL BE SEX,,, MUCH SEX AND LETTING LOOSE,,,,,YOU GO GIRL..... but tread lighty .. there are soo many man but soo little time ahhahahh love ya girl... my puter is down so i am using my daughters..... would love to seeyou in cal in sept...

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WILD FIRE HAS BEEN INVADED BY AUSTIN SWAT TEAM!!!!!

by wildfire in

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friends

yes my life is just one big crazy circus,,,, i go to the apostofest and have a great time.....meeting great people,,, and then i come home to recoupe... well i am in my new house ,, trying to put things away ,,, when i hear a pounding on the back door.... i am alittle startled thinking it was my daughter,,,no think again,, its the austin swat team with all there gear and weapons drawn... (i abouttttttttttt shit my pants....) they had to tear down a portion of my security fence to get in....( i shudder to think if i wasnt home,,, would they have just broke down my door.... me thinks so.....) so i go what is this about...they tell me there is a guy across the street with a rifle shooting .... and making threats... they proceed to all gather at the only window i have downstairs ,,,,and keep telling me to get down.... incase the bullets start flying.....am i dreaming...is this really happening to me.... i just wanted to start my life over... and now it could be ending//////i keep running upstairs to change my clothes...and then they invade my bedroom as it has the perfect spot to watch him,,, as they move around my not moved in stuff to another corner////one guy was sooo sweet and done was a complete moron ordering me around ...in my house./....yikes.....so finally one guy say s get her out of here and i hear 6 shots.....this time i did shit my pants but thank god i was kneeling in the bathroom.... i must have been a bad girl at the apostofest... i am being punished for all my sins .. oh this will take awhile so macho swat team guy says take her out of here of course i gladly leave while i am being escorted by a nice copper.... now remember my 2 vehicles are right outside and the chance they will get shot up are good ...!!!

!so i am alittle concerned my house has become commando central...with austins finest... and i am escorted around the street to a van/////i left ndak for this... why not ... they dont callme wild fire for nothing.... well minutes pass and i meet my neighbors ,, welcome wagon texas style....yikes,,,,,so finally the all clear is given i walk up to some smart asses and say what if my vehilcles are all shot up they say well you need to talke to so and so...i go great while my life passssses before my eyes... i go back to my house ... afraid of i may find inside ... but alas.,,, only the wooden shades to the window are damaged scuff marks on the floor and my bedroom looks well messy like it did before.....all this time i am taking pictures of everything ... all for proof and to think i didnt even hand in the move --in sheet yet... what a hoot.... they hauled him away safely.. but the yellow tape comes up so i cant go anywhere and i am invaded by detectives.. police... they take pics and ask ????...

i dont know much i just moved in...soooooooooooooo what can i say...adventure or trouble follows me around for sure.....he was shooting mostly at the trash can and he did shoot close to my vehicle but missed it//// oh well... dontcha know ,,, life is one big circus.. parade...you name it, i am usually in the middle of it..... i miss you guys already... gumby,, shotgun, valis.... cg...theresa....wild turkey and dede...npy... winston.. xena....joanne... my northern partner in crime/////i am just glad its all over or is it????

wildfire

YES BRYAN tis the man... who disrupted my life and put it onhold....my car was parked directly outside his door and my windsheild was cracked ... i was expecting the worse but he mainly shot at the pavement and a big dumpster... near by.... you know i laugh about it... but i think i am still in shock so i went to the police and asked for victums services which i am taking full advantage of....... my fence is still not fixed or other stuff broke inside my house ,, i even have pictures of the swat team in my house cool huh.......i am jittery at nite even tho it happened in the day time,,,, but i went to a blue october concert at carlos and charlies on saturday and loved it sooo much made me forget all the horror of that day......so thanks for caring.. wish i could have talked with youmore but that last nite.. i lost my voice soooo there it is....... my excuse haahhah

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Who ever loves me will ,,,,,,,,

by kls in

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friends

congrat me i am offically ,,,,,,,, a jedi .

.

you only have to bow once

wildfire

KLS I am sooo happy for you.... i have been soo busy.. fighting swat teams and attending apostofests that i dont think i will ever make it to jedi ( boo hoo) my computer is not even hooked up yet so iam at my daughters house in austin ...but my phone will be connected this thursday ... so i can pm you my new number so we can chat..... i love austin... even tho their WELCOME WAGON COMMITTEE IS ALITTLE OVER ZEALOUS HAHAHAHAH LOVE TO YOU .....

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To all those who attended the Dallas Apostafest

by Junction-Guy in

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hey gang, i would just like to say that the 3 of us had the time of our life down there and we enjoyed meeting everyone.

never have i felt so touched by something as i did this apostafest.

it was so hard for us to leave texas on sunday morning.

wildfire

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW JUNCTION GUY YOUARE THE GREATEST..... you reminded me of a littlekid opening presents on christmas morning......all EXCITED AND COULDNT WAIT FOR THE NEXT PRESENT... THIS WAS MY FIRST APOSTOFEST AND IT WONT BE MY LAST.... I TOO WAS OVER WHELMED BY THE LOVE AND CARING OF ALL THAT ATTENDED AND TO THINK,,,,, we could be ourselves without fear of someone lookin over our shoulders I am so glad i got to know more of you and your darling brother.....( i call him russel jr...) he is a doll and we did have a good time that nite at sonnys.....mmmm hyaaaa party on dudes i do wish we were not sooo far away.... hell i love road trips.....and i still owe you some pics....afteri develope them ok !!!!!!!

CHIN UP ... SWEETIE..... AND YOU KNOW YOU AND YOUR BROTHER CAN VISIT ME ANYTIME....YOU KNOW AUSTIN IS THE HOT PLACE TO BE..........I HAVE LOTS OF ROOM........,OH YA MY EMAIL IS [email protected] SO DROP ME A LINE ANYTIME SUGAR....... SAY HI TO YOUR WIFE TOO SHE IS GREAT......

LETS KEEP IN TOUCH.... SHALOM MY FRIEND........ BRENDA OH YA TELL DARIN HE OWES ME A STARBUCKS COFFEE.. SOMETIME... OK

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WILD FIRE HAS BEEN INVADED BY AUSTIN SWAT TEAM!!!!!

by wildfire in

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friends

yes my life is just one big crazy circus,,,, i go to the apostofest and have a great time.....meeting great people,,, and then i come home to recoupe... well i am in my new house ,, trying to put things away ,,, when i hear a pounding on the back door.... i am alittle startled thinking it was my daughter,,,no think again,, its the austin swat team with all there gear and weapons drawn... (i abouttttttttttt shit my pants....) they had to tear down a portion of my security fence to get in....( i shudder to think if i wasnt home,,, would they have just broke down my door.... me thinks so.....) so i go what is this about...they tell me there is a guy across the street with a rifle shooting .... and making threats... they proceed to all gather at the only window i have downstairs ,,,,and keep telling me to get down.... incase the bullets start flying.....am i dreaming...is this really happening to me.... i just wanted to start my life over... and now it could be ending//////i keep running upstairs to change my clothes...and then they invade my bedroom as it has the perfect spot to watch him,,, as they move around my not moved in stuff to another corner////one guy was sooo sweet and done was a complete moron ordering me around ...in my house./....yikes.....so finally one guy say s get her out of here and i hear 6 shots.....this time i did shit my pants but thank god i was kneeling in the bathroom.... i must have been a bad girl at the apostofest... i am being punished for all my sins .. oh this will take awhile so macho swat team guy says take her out of here of course i gladly leave while i am being escorted by a nice copper.... now remember my 2 vehicles are right outside and the chance they will get shot up are good ...!!!

!so i am alittle concerned my house has become commando central...with austins finest... and i am escorted around the street to a van/////i left ndak for this... why not ... they dont callme wild fire for nothing.... well minutes pass and i meet my neighbors ,, welcome wagon texas style....yikes,,,,,so finally the all clear is given i walk up to some smart asses and say what if my vehilcles are all shot up they say well you need to talke to so and so...i go great while my life passssses before my eyes... i go back to my house ... afraid of i may find inside ... but alas.,,, only the wooden shades to the window are damaged scuff marks on the floor and my bedroom looks well messy like it did before.....all this time i am taking pictures of everything ... all for proof and to think i didnt even hand in the move --in sheet yet... what a hoot.... they hauled him away safely.. but the yellow tape comes up so i cant go anywhere and i am invaded by detectives.. police... they take pics and ask ????...

i dont know much i just moved in...soooooooooooooo what can i say...adventure or trouble follows me around for sure.....he was shooting mostly at the trash can and he did shoot close to my vehicle but missed it//// oh well... dontcha know ,,, life is one big circus.. parade...you name it, i am usually in the middle of it..... i miss you guys already... gumby,, shotgun, valis.... cg...theresa....wild turkey and dede...npy... winston.. xena....joanne... my northern partner in crime/////i am just glad its all over or is it????

wildfire

well I woke up this morning thinking it was all a bad dream,,,,but no it was real... i thank you for all your concern...we actually did a search of the area we were moving into and it said the most crime was car theft.... go figure...I guess this is the TEXAS WELCOME COMMITTEE,,, and yes I did have way too much fun in dallas...this past weekend...it was a sure sign i would be in for a butt-- kickin texas style... I walked out to see my car this morning the one that was parked right in front of the shooters house...and the windshield was cracked...I found out later that the man who was shooting was arrested without incident ,,, after they tear gassed his lovely home and broke down his door....I really think i need to see a good shrink ,,, cus i am feeling real jumpy, every time i hear a loud noise..i guess i am considered a victumm now/// and I slept most of the day ... I needed the humor tho... from my friends....I wrote down everything that happened tome yesterday.(journaling) and if i ever get my computer put together.. will let you all see it from the victums perspective.... yes shutterbug, my life has never been boring or dull......and i guess it wont be here either THATS WHY THEY CALL ME WILDFIRE.....!!!!!!!!!!! SHALOM