@Check_Your_Premises
That is the problem though, it shouldn't require a "leap of faith" which is the point of my OP.
However, I am waiting by the phone for the call and this is despite being an ex born-in, babtized Jehovah's Witness and having a greater portion of my life ruined by the Jehovah's Witness cult and their version of the Christian God. I should be running away from any notion of a Christian God. However I am still humbly here earnestly seeking God. I've prayed for a call back. I pray to whomever is out there to reveal themselves to me. I give God (if they are there) the benefit of the doubt that maybe my human understanding is indeed too limited to understand their purpose. I'm envious of those who have received this undeniable proof, and am in awe of their strong faith. I crave a hope. Perhaps all in due time.