I just finally figured out what it was. Power. I have read, heard and felt everyones posts here on what it feels like to be shunned.
If I was an ego maniac, so focused on my own everlasting, selfish survival, I could understand the 'power'.
But who of us here want to believe that? That humans have power over us. Is that why we are here? Simply because we don't believe in 'Evil' power anymore?
Our parents, our siblings, friends, who we love more than they love us?
Or do they love us so much that they shun us?
Has Jehovah shunned Satan?
Jehovah had to watch his own Son die, but in the twinkling of an eye, his son was back with him, does he really know how it feels to live a life with the "hope" of seeing a loved family member again, let alone your most beloved son? Why did God only survive a 'twinkling of an eye'?..( I know this is the scripture used for the remnant..but wasn't Jesus of the annointed? )
So we have to watch our children, parents, family members and loved ones die, to see them when? No one knows...
But we are made in Gods image?
He hasn't destroyed his son Satan yet. He got his most beloved one back immediately, and never lost contact with him.
So what the hell?
I am losing faith...in the Organization...and their interpetations.
Lost