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  I'm a Mess

  by headisspinning in

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  i am an emotional mess.. yesterday, i was so firm.

  today i feel like crying.

  it was a lovely, sunny day here.

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  I am just overwhelmed with horrible guilt. I feel like after everything Jehovah has done for me... the 'Spiritual Paradise'.. the "love of the brothers'... and here I am falling to Satan's wiles and NOT 'proving Satan a Liar'...

  But I feel like I am like a lost child and my life has been so messed up and I have begged the elders who Jehovah told me are 'spirit appointed'... I have pleaded for their help and they won't even acknowledge me. And what about my husband? How can the elders know that he was repeatedly raped as a little boy and not even blink an eye?

  I am screaming for Jehovah: "If you are there... if everything we have devoted our lives to was for real... HELP US NOW!!!"...

  Why am I getting a "Not In Service" signal?
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  I'm a Mess

  by headisspinning in

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  i am an emotional mess.. yesterday, i was so firm.

  today i feel like crying.

  it was a lovely, sunny day here.

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  Oh and thank you, palmtree. I need ya!
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  I'm a Mess

  by headisspinning in

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  i am an emotional mess.. yesterday, i was so firm.

  today i feel like crying.

  it was a lovely, sunny day here.

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  I just want Jehovah... do you know what I mean? I want to know he's there. I just felt like my whole world was turn upside down and then given a cruel twist today.

  I want all of you to be very, very bad and evil people... for telling me the truth. And that Ray Franz too. WHY does he have to be so effen BELIEVABLE and HONEST?!!!
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  Just Tell Us In Plain English

  by headisspinning in

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  if god has instructions for sincere people why can't he just tell us what they are in plain language?.

  he could do that and some people would fall in line and others wouldn't.. if i was god, that's what i would do.. as a parent, that's what i do with my kids.. i am so tired of all the guesswork..

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  If God has instructions for sincere people why can't he just tell us what they are in plain language?

  He could do that and some people would fall in line and others wouldn't.

  If I was God, that's what I would do.

  As a parent, that's what I do with my kids.

  I am so tired of all the guesswork.
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  I'm a Mess

  by headisspinning in

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  i am an emotional mess.. yesterday, i was so firm.

  today i feel like crying.

  it was a lovely, sunny day here.

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  I am an emotional mess.

  Yesterday, I was so firm. Today I feel like crying.

  It was a lovely, sunny day here. I was looking at the blue sky and my little baby son and I was so thankful.

  I just wanted everything to be okay and normal. I felt love for Jehovah for giving me what I have, even thought the going has been hard.

  I felt a longing for my mom... I just felt like, no matter what, I would do pretty much anything just to get my family back.

  I can't deal with this. I felt like Jehovah was somehow keeping me ALIVE all this time despite what I've been through. I've never been mad at Him.

  Help!
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  Sitting on the fence

  by INDYpendent in

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  new here; this is my first post.

  i signed up with the hope of getting some of your thoughts regarding how to proceed with an ongoing situation.

  a little background: i have been baptized for about twenty years, or is it twenty-one, i can't recall.

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  I babysat a little boy who was maybe two years old. When I was changing his diaper I noticed a lot of bruises on his legs. I also noticed that he was really not himself that day. I asked him what happened - "Zacky, how did you get these ouchies?"... He said: "Zacky's mommy did it."

  It was just horrible and I didn't know what to do. Finally, I decided to just go to his mom and be straight with her. I didn't accuse her. I just told her the story exactly like I told you.

  She flat out up and down denied anything had happened... And never called me again to babysit.

  That has bothered me for years and years because what I should have done is reported it. The way I handled it was much too gentle and I hate to think what happened to that little boy.
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  Sitting on the fence

  by INDYpendent in

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  new here; this is my first post.

  i signed up with the hope of getting some of your thoughts regarding how to proceed with an ongoing situation.

  a little background: i have been baptized for about twenty years, or is it twenty-one, i can't recall.

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  Hey, I am not judging but I am all for staying alert when it comes to the protection of children. I would much rather err on the side of caution. My love and compassion goes towards kids first. Sorry.
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  Do people generally like you?

  by Terry in

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  in person, people tend to love me.

  i'm told how likeable i am.. on discussion boards i have unlikeable qualities which infuriate others.. .

  are you likeable in person and likeable on boards?

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  I like you , Jamie.... that must make me decent - WAHOO!!!
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  Sitting on the fence

  by INDYpendent in

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  new here; this is my first post.

  i signed up with the hope of getting some of your thoughts regarding how to proceed with an ongoing situation.

  a little background: i have been baptized for about twenty years, or is it twenty-one, i can't recall.

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  I agree. Report your suspicions to the authorities. Skip the elders. In Canada, we're told to report even suspected abuse, and like Jamie said, I'm quite sure you can do it anonymously. Just get it off your conscience.

  I don't have any real advice in regard to your other question because I've never been in a situation like yours. All I can say is be subtle and really take your time. That's what I'm trying to do in my own situation.

  Stick around... you will get some really great support here.
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  Crisis of Conscience Just Arrived...

  by headisspinning in

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  i am about to take the plunge.... will keep you posted!.

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  I'm only into the second chapter because I am reading it very slowly and carefully so I don't miss any key points.

  Ray seems like he was a very sincere, honest and insightful person.