Ohio i really felt your pain when reading about losing your beloved pet! I was in tears. I lost my dog ''Gertie'' 6 years ago and there's not a day that goes by without me filling up and missing her... I am comforted in the fact that the ''Most Holy one of Isreal'' will return the earth to it's former state and i will have Gertie back. For the moment you have your memories and if it helps look at some photos and cry until you can cry no more. To cry and release that emotion is very healing. No one on here thinks your stupid, all those that have loved and lost pets know the pain you are enduring and can totally emphathize.
*Sends a virtual hug*
Peace