Let's address these posts one at a time.
BluesBrother--cool shades. I may not have spelled it out here, but I did inform her of my research and my belief that this religion uses mind control. Her defense was that everybody uses it--the media, etc., etc. Rather than making this belief the difference between losing her (again, after 5 long years of aching and waiting to get her back and going through emotional torture), and keeping her, I chose to subdue my personal beliefs on the matter. The context of this must also be considered--I am only one of 10+ family members involved in the religion, including most of my immediate family. One doesn't lightly walk away from that forever. Those factors weighed heavily on my choice. And yes, all of this is a recipe for disaster. It's a suicide mission. But it's the last mission I have left. So I embrace it. But thanks for your thoughts.
Nugget--I agree. There are huge matters at stake. It won't be easy. But I've got nothing left. I can at least try to give my life to preserving the family I've always wanted, whatever the cost. If I fail, so be it. But freedom, as valuable as it is, is not worth losing her forever. Not to me. That's why I stay and fight. And given the human wreckage this religion has left in its wake, I'd be questioning my conscience if I didn't stay to monitor their activities. And...spies don't have an easy life. See 'Alias: The Complete Series'--the inspiration for my screen name, of course.
Black Sheep--I see your point. I did say I would go out and recruit others, but I didn't say how hard I would try. ;) And not everyone suffers as many here have suffered. Even so, I am aware of the possible moral implications of my choices. But all of this is a huge gray area. None of us is particularly exempt from being victimized in one way or another. It's just a matter of who's victimizing you. Somewhere, wherever you are, is the guy with the biggest metaphorical [or literal] gun who draws the lines for you and takes your lunch money. We work for him no matter how free and autonomous we try to be. That's the nature of this world. The best I can do is suck at recruiting--which I've had no trouble sucking at thus far. I don't want to make any more victims or victims of victims. But I'm not going to destroy my family on account of possible futures. Statistically speaking, the odds of my actions leading to someone becoming a JW are....holy crap...
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