Oompa? Am I having a flashback??? Did I dream what you just posted last night? HA!
Seriously though.....sorry about your pain. It's so hard. It's hard to understand.
If those in Jonestown drank the poisoned Kool-Aid AND force fed it to their children KNOWING it would kill them, I guess it's not a real stretch of imagination that JW's don't want to know the truth(wow was that an oxymoron?) They take comfort in it. It makes sense of this world to them. Maybe ignorance is bliss? If they acknowledge that the organization is wrong then it rocks their whole world. Everything they know and believe is now a lie. A lot of people can't take that stress. They'd rather be in ignorance. It's almost like they're institutionalized. Like a prison inmate who's been in so long they can't function on the outside in the real world. They do anything they can to go back. Maybe it's the structure. Maybe it's having your thinking done for you. That's one reason active JW's are so afraid of those of us who know the research and what's really going on.
hang in there
M