aparently someone had a bad experiance with a clown when they were younger.. ;)
chellechelle
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letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle inmichelle, my dear girl :.
with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap?
and when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help?
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letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle inmichelle, my dear girl :.
with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap?
and when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help?
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chellechelle
daily updates on crazy situation...
i find it weird how certain people can be so afraid of sharing their opinions. for example now that all of this bull***t is going on my family suddenly has this intesive opinion about my mothers religion. For example, my step grandpa is the closest to me out of all the members of my family. And I never knew that he had any sort of opinion about the jw's good or bad. however now that i have openly discussed my feelings towards the so called " religion" being a mind control cult and what not, i have learned that he was always dead set against it.. if he was ever baptised he would be one beauty of an apostate... first thing he did when i came into the house was hand me a book to read.. " Jehovah's Witnesses.. answered verse by verse" i haven't read it yet just the introduction but it seems to be on the right track.
anyway, he feels that my life has been stolen from me.. a big part of it would be not celebrating the holidays.. which i do not mind so much in itself. i dont think that my life was ruined because i missed out on presents but i understand what he is refering to. he believes that all children should have magic in their lives and be able to hold on to a fantasy world of innocence and amusement. lets just say he is really excited for this christmas.
He also thinks that my mother has destroyed a great many good things about my personality etc. which im not sure exactly what things he means but i guess i tend to agreee with him.. i have been noticing many things i naturally do or think of because of how my mother raised me in this intensive faith. However,, i think the biggest thing would be guilt. Which, i am happy to say, i no longer feel. yes it is in the back of my mind but i now have to ability to stop and say to myself.. " why are you thinking like this?" my aunt was just telling me a story that illustrates the fact perfectly.
I have never been one to cry. that is just my personality.. even when i was a child it just never happened unless it was something very big that had occured. well, at one point my aunt lived with us for a couple months. she said she remembered when i was about 8 years old being yelled at to a rediculous extent for doing something bad..and i cried in my room for about an hour (she couldnt remember what it was.) She said that she couldn;t believe the amount of guilt my mother had expected me to feel for doing whatever the thing was. and that her main point was " whe you do something bad you hurt jehovah.... more than you can imagine.. " she couldnt understand how religious beliefs could influence the disciplining of your child to such an extent. that is not something a loving religion does to its young children...
i think that my biggest problem with the whole thing for the time being would have to be this whole conditional love thing....does that not violate the very core values of the so called "truth"? and we "apostates" are the ones who twist the scriptures for our own purposes???? no.. someone has got that very very wrong. I dont believe in judging people for what they think.. yes i judge in the way that i believe the jw's are a cult any people who are affiliated with them have some real thinking to do.. But i do not think that i can no longer love my mother because she is one. no. we are still a family and religion should not devide us. however, her feelings are not the same. i guess i have to accept that fact and move on.. particularly because she has not exactly made my life, lets say, enjoyable.. but that is a whole other story.. maybe i will add it at some point.
anyways, back to the original topic. i ma now glad to have the support of my family.. i just hope it lasts..
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letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle inmichelle, my dear girl :.
with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap?
and when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help?
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chellechelle
i guess i could add the opther development in my life...
so my precious mother stopped by today to bring me the rest of my shizza. and as soon as she stepped in the door. started crying... we miss you we want you home.. ok i did not leave i got kicked out.. wow how amazing it is , the speed at which people's minds degenerate. the conditions are apeal the dfing and follow the cult rules.. hmm let me think about it .. um helllzzz no!!! we actually started talking about it.. my goal was to avoid the entire fighting stage and just say you know what i think but it didn't wuite happen that way.
i realized, apparently she doesnt know what i think . atleats not entirely... however, i realize she has come to realize rte entire " apostate" thing now... oooh lucky me....she actually learned something.. thats major progress... ( seriously if you knew her it is). anyway she has decided that it is against her christian conscience to speak to me ever again..
and they wonder why everyone agrees it is a cult. you have to destroy family ties and never talk to your children whom you are supposed to love unconditionally, because they have changed their religous beliefs.. that is not right...
who ever started the entire shpeel about love your neighbour as yourself cetainly didnt think it through to the conclusion..
anyways, i am now effectively disowned by my mother ---lucky me--- and my father really just doesnt give a shit about anything.. not a jw but pussy whipped.. i dont understand how but u know what i mean... luckily the granparents are on my side.. completely and utterly.. this situation really has the makings for an interesting couple of months...
ill just sit back and enjoy the show
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second letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle indear michelle, .
just one qucik letter to let you know i miss you.
like everyone else i am concerned for you; but dont worry im not going to lecture you.
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chellechelle
well thankfully i have already escaped i dont have to worry about that
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Suggestions for JW Girlfriend?
by Mincan inso i've been seeing this jw girl for a couple weeks now... she kind of contacted me out of the blue (i've known her since i was 4, shes two years older than i) and wanted to hook up for coffee or something.
i avoided it for about half a month.
not really avoided it, but was going to have fun with it when it came, because i thought she was just going to try to encourage me to go to meetings and whatnot.. so, first time she calls me up at like 9:30pm on a weeknight to come over to her house... so i ride my bicycle over and go inside and she and her cousin were getting drunk on alcohol and they started getting me to drink.
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chellechelle
wow its kinda weird to read that lol and the following threads......
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letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle inmichelle, my dear girl :.
with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap?
and when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help?
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chellechelle
oh no i know what you mean ... im not pissed or anything.. but how should i be pleased that she is thinking about me when her thoughts are " it would be better if you had just died" that the clincher..
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second letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle indear michelle, .
just one qucik letter to let you know i miss you.
like everyone else i am concerned for you; but dont worry im not going to lecture you.
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chellechelle
yes this is true. however, define immorality.. is it purely doing what any normal person would do with their life? the thing is whether or not i feel bad for doing it.. aparently the answer is no :)
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second letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle indear michelle, .
just one qucik letter to let you know i miss you.
like everyone else i am concerned for you; but dont worry im not going to lecture you.
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chellechelle
I know dont you just love the warped logic...? how can i feel so lost sad and alone when i am now so utterly free?
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letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle inmichelle, my dear girl :.
with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap?
and when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help?
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chellechelle
ya thx. by the way not my sister... my sister is younger and doesnt speak to me.. this is someone who calls herself my best friend... i thought best friends were supposed to llove unconditionally. but aparently a matter of religion is an overbearing condition that one cannot get past. oh and i know about the guilt that is all that anyone has said to me about the whole thing is how guilty i should be. as if the fact that others feel bad should be the determining factor in choosing a religion... i should make a way of life for myself because i might hurt someones feelings... that is not me..
oh and dont worry i do not feel bad in the least.. i take everything with a grain of salt . i realize where it is coming from it is not a natural insult but forced through brainwashing.. their words could not harm me in the slightest.
but thanks for your concern... it does help to have such a " great guy" on my side :)
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letter from a supposed friend
by chellechelle inmichelle, my dear girl :.
with all that you went through last year how could you felt yourself be sucked into a similar trap?
and when you saw yourseld going a certain way why didn't you ask for help?
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chellechelle
what i like is that you are spot on with the highlighting. and there is nothing wrong that i have done.. unless there is a problem with happiness in ones life i dont see a problem. oh we had a phone conversation i wish my brain was attuned enough to remember everything that wa said during that... it was some funny shit.