its a gradual awakening and everyone reacts differently, myself I found an huge sense of joy,relief about finding TTATT, but I was having to deal with a different set of problems in regards to a failing marriage,unemployment( I did find good employment very shortly after we separated) moving away and eventually divorce , I really did hit rock bottom during the last year together as I watched it all fall apart, I simply was unable to cope, but the sense of starting out again after I'd moved away and I found a new purpose in life, a renewed energy, life turned around so quickly and so much for the better, but we leave wounded by it we take away scars to our graves after investing so much time,emotion and energy in it. I can really understand the deep rooted mental health problems that people develop;anxiety/panic attacks,depression,PTSD etc but time is a wonderful healer, we do move on. Looking back it all seems so ridiculous that we were sucked into this scam but the amazing thing I've found is being able to help others escape from them and wake up. Look forward to the rest of your life TheLiberator!