Posts by Tucky

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PAPA WAS A JW: GAY & LESB. WORLD REVIEW

by morrisamb in

the july/august issue of the gay & lesbian review worldwide / the sex-priest scandal issue arrived in the mail today.

i can now post the 3 1/2 page story they commissioned from me.

they gave me a coverblurb: [i'll paste here just part of it, since it is 4000 words long.

Tucky

Your abuser is a man who lays waste to everything he lays a
hand upon, and justifies it as he goes. I do see him as a crazed,
enraged individual, truly, letting himself off the hook as he
'villifies' those around him.

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porndealer supports silentlambs.org?

by Bernd in

dear sirs, .

domain http://www.silentlambs.de please note .

hans georg kolpak is a well known .

Tucky

Since issues of violence against women and children and porn are closely related at the very least in peoples' minds, why on earth would silentlambs affiliate with this guy? I don't want to believe it, but if it's true, Mr. Bowen needs to make a statement. Just hope it isn't Clinton - ish!

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READ MY MOLESTER'S LETTER NOW!

by morrisamb in

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to read my father's (my abuser) letter:.

click on link: a letter from my molester .

Tucky

Dear Mrs. Sloboy

Thank you for your kind words. My dead spirit was also not noticed by friends, teachers, extended family. Maybe they did, but "noticing" requires effort, involvement. We know many don't want to get involved because there could be repercussions. Unfortunately, that's just the way it is. Those of us who are brave enough to act realize that lives are at stake.

Except for the occasional nightmare, I did sleep well tonight. I'd sleep better if I knew children didn't have to go through what I experienced.

Thanks again for your message.

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New Review of JW/Incest Memoir

by Tucky in

biographies & memoirs.

rating: 4 out 4 .

father's touch (available at www.fatherstouch.com ).

Tucky

Review: Biographies & Memoirs Rating: 4 out 4 Father's Touch (available at www.fatherstouch.com )
Donald D'Haene
2002 Millennial Mind Pub/www.american-book.com
1589821122 What happens when the soul of a child is held prisoner in a childhood of parental abuse, where the weird comes to be normal? It's not so much the soul of this young boy that was held captive, unless you equate emotions with the soul. Donald's mind, as a child, certainly was being imprinted by his elders, & they were not only in his father's home. It is, however, in Donald's childhood homes, where Papa merely ate, slept & vented his spleen & his unfettered sexual proclivities, that Donald's mind learns to split when his father's attention turns on him. Donald D'Haene is the first author I've read who recounts his transformation with sessions of mental therapy. We so readily rush to doctors to heal our flesh, & clergymen to heal our soul, yet when it comes to healing our minds, we are way behind the times. Since using the services of a community health organization myself, & knowing how useful & healing they can be, I do not remember another book in which we can see how it works. As a Children's Advocate for a Domestic Violence Prevention Program, I was witness to the many, many times wounded children took much comfort & strength from those weekly sessions where they were the center of one other incorruptible adult's world, in a safe, unchanging, trustworthy place, where they found their voices & themselves. It wasn't until Donald was almost an adult that he read an Anne Lander's letter, & realized that what the father of their childhood had done to him & his siblings was illegal by the laws of the land. Even if, for years, the elders of his religion, didn't think so - reprehensible, yes; a sin, undoubtedly; illegal? The thought didn't enter their minds because the law was for people who lived in the world, & Donald's parents' religion was based on keeping themselves apart from that sinfilled populace. It is to be remembered that Donald D'Haene's childhood was back in the Good Old Days, when there were no agencies to help victims of domestic abuse, & mental health therapists who knew how to help such victims, were few & far between. Donald's unholy, self-righteous father, turned his family into a cult, both religiously & [dys]functionally. He subjugated his spouse by isolating her from other women, from shopping, driving, & any form of entertainment. By prohibiting her to care for her appearance, allowing her no beauty aids or health care of any kind. He kept her prisoner with ignorance of the land to which they had emigrated, his sexual dominance, poverty & frequent moves of the family tent. Donald's mother, while a tower of love & stability for her children, was the target of her husband's misogyny & vilest moods. At first she fought back & was so soundly thrashed, she quit & turned into the perfect, obsequious, terrified, ill-kempt, ill-healthed, brain-washed wife. Notwithstanding that, she kept her children fed, clean & dressed as best she could. As this despot manipulated his fiefdom, his wife bore him three sons & a daughter. While they lived exemplary lives in the meeting halls of their religion, behind the walls of the many houses to which they moved, life was entirely different. Father's Touch by Donald D'Haene, is the second son's story of one family's life when the man of the house becomes an ogre. Ahead of Donald is big brother Ronny. Behind him came Marina, his adored sister, & Erik. This youngest brother is outspoken, outgoing & untamable from the gitgo. This is the brother who first lets the cat out of the bag by defying his father's advances & breaking the silence about The Game Daniel D'Haene had been playing for years with his older children. That is when the children learn they all know how to play The Game, & their lives will never be the same. It will get worse. As their father's control unravels, he desperately tries to talk himself out of any responsibility. His second son begins to put the pieces together, begins to think for himself, begins to see a horizon. That's not to say the abuse lessens or stops when the father is faced with an outraged wife & four furious children. Rather the father's tyranny takes on a more sinister hue. He stalks his children. Donald D'Haene could have written a dire & dark, interminable, unendurable litany of misery. He could have, however, he didn't, because he has an irrepressible authentic optimism, a enviable faith in his god, & one of the stubbornest streaks known to man. While all about are losing their heads, this second son learns to evolve, to blend into the scenery, to walk alone & to think & write his thoughts. Lucky for us he did, because without Donald D'Haene's particular voice telling his particular story, this world would be a little less wonderful. He has woven together flashbacks, journal entries, conversations with his partner, & records of his sessions with his counselor, into a tapestry that tells the story of one boy's peril in the presence of his father, & his long & winding road to healing, happiness & maturity. All in all, Donald D'Haene's Father's Touch ... is a lusty, forthright & engrossing read. I was ....incensed & frustrated .... [reading the court transcript] to see their father's cunning once again, trump his children. By pleading guilty to a lesser charge of indecency, he avoids a trial at which all his dirty deeds would have been aired, while the anguish each of his children & his wife went through in telling their story to the authorities, goes unheard. Father's Touch has it all: ebullience, sex, anger, fear, poverty, survival, insightfulness, frustration &, perhaps the most important, the love of telling a story. Donald D'Haene's writing, like the notice on the side mirrors of your car: "Objects are closer than they appear," is engaging. This author skilfully carries you along, rushes you into big thoughts, & vivid descriptions of the obstacles before him. It leaves you gasping with outrage, empathy & the sheer joy of reading. Do catch my Interview with this lively Canadian - I think you will be as delighted as I to meet him. Rebecca Brown
Publisher & Editor
RebeccasReads.Com
Great Books, Reviews & eInterviews
http://www.rebeccasreads.com
Author
Standing The Watch: Memories of a home death.
http://www.rebeccasreads.com/stw/stw_index.html

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READ MY MOLESTER'S LETTER NOW!

by morrisamb in

.

to read my father's (my abuser) letter:.

click on link: a letter from my molester .

Tucky

PS. Is there ANY truth in your abuser's letter? I went to the photos on your web site at http://www.fatherstouch.com/Photo.htm You look like his other children. Why does he talk about you like he knows of your gay life now? He sounds obsessed with you.

I'm just curious. He's a nutcase. My heart goes out to you and your family 'cause you're the ones that had to live with him.

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READ MY MOLESTER'S LETTER NOW!

by morrisamb in

.

to read my father's (my abuser) letter:.

click on link: a letter from my molester .

Tucky

Religion means nothing to me. I don't target Jehovah's Witnesses as being better or worse than any other religion. How you live your life is the greatest witness and having just read your abuser's letter, I am even stronger in that conviction. My grandfather abused my brothers and I and he was a religious fanatic as well. Unfortunately we promised each other we would not disclose. My abuser died "righteous" while we suffered in silence.

Thanks for having the guts to come forward with your story. Fellow victims can see right through your '"father's" lies. Everyone in the world, including the Witnesses gets blamed for your fathers sexually abusing innocent children for years; and for his current history of failed marriages (five is it now?) Who but a molester could project the responsibility for a record like that on everyone and everything but himself? Your abuser is the master of self-delusion. He gives "Christians" of whatever denomination a bad name. Would God use this guy as his messenger? And, for arguement's sake, let's say he is, is this epistle a Christlike message? Give us all, especially your and your family, a break!!!!

This is something I wrote about my experience with abuse:

I've been looking for my child lately, but I just can't find him. He's gone I believe forever because he's dead. I've been calling, "come out, come out. I won't hurt you. I just want to see you and hug you!" But there is nothing but silence, blackness, and a large void. All that's left of him is me: an adult male body who can't feel himself, who is locked up in a room inside my head; "safe" and "in control". My child was alive. He survived many of my grandfather's attacks, but at some point he left forever. Right now I feel he's dead. He was murdered. People who sexually or physically abuse children should be thought of as murderers, not as sick or having a problem -- they are killers. I think I can be somewhat happy in my life, but a part of me is "dead" and that's the real crime of my abuse.

Tucky