Posts by bluesbreaker59

This is me and my band in action, sorry its a bit dark, taken on a friend's digital camera. In case anyone cares to watch: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvasGia2qVs

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Hilarious quote tonight to one of my "ex" friends...

by bluesbreaker59 in

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so tonight, i have one of my buddies over that is a fader, and we're sitting around eating some smoked pork and bbq beans that i made over the weekend.

one of our "conditional friends" called me and asked if he could pick up his mail, that he had forwarded to my house.

you see our former friend has a credit card and cell phone that he doesn't want his dub parents knowing about, so he had it forwarded to my place.

r.a.m., wow, really taking the moral high ground eh??? Well have fun with that. BTW, make sure you don't speed, or forget your seat belt, or roll a stop sign, or flatulate in public. Doing all those would be breaking Caesar's laws, which would be breaking god's laws as well... Me on the other hand, I'm just a sinner.

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Moving on... advice needed

by bluesbreaker59 in

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so this week, i broke up with my "on again off again" girlfriend of 8 months.

i came to realize that even though i cared about her immensely, i didn't see us working out long term.

that thought hit me a couple weeks ago, so i didn't think i should waste anymore of her time or mine.

bluesbreaker59

And that's been what's so refreshing about the "current girl"... Since we've been friends, we've went to a lot of concerts together, we both love vintage blues and jazz, and really love swing blues. So we went out a lot, and hung out a lot listening to music or going to see local bands, and she pushes my musical side really hard, loves that I'm a musician part time, etc. We also like to have deep conversations about religion, politics, news, opinions on various hot button topics, and just hitting up local vineyards to try out new wine. Then also we love to cook, and try new restaurants, or just go drinking on the weekends. Its been such a light weight relationship thus far, with no expectations, of anything more than just having a great time. We were introduced at a blues club, by some mutual friends, and just really hit it off. So that's the full length story. But I really don't want to push anything and screw it up, that would totally suck, since I've waited so patiently on this to come around.

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Moving on... advice needed

by bluesbreaker59 in

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friends

so this week, i broke up with my "on again off again" girlfriend of 8 months.

i came to realize that even though i cared about her immensely, i didn't see us working out long term.

that thought hit me a couple weeks ago, so i didn't think i should waste anymore of her time or mine.

bluesbreaker59

Thanks guys. This is really tough, because my "new girl", is confused about the situation, and is wanting to have a relationship but is having trust issues now, because, she thinks if I cheated once, what makes her any different? And that was really hard to take.

Another reason that I did this was I looked through my ex-girlfriends phone, and saw text messages sent to a lot of guys, that I wasn't comfortable with, and also phone calls coming in at some strange hours. So that made me a little skeptical about our relationship. Then she seemed overly concerned with "settling down" and wanting kids, and getting me to quit playing out in bands. Well, I love my music, and have no plans to stop anytime soon, after all, I'm still a young guy. I've got a long time to have a family and children. I want both, and would be willing to settle down if Ms. Right came knocking, but right now I just want to have fun, and have companionship without a lot of heavy expectations.

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Moving on... advice needed

by bluesbreaker59 in

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friends

so this week, i broke up with my "on again off again" girlfriend of 8 months.

i came to realize that even though i cared about her immensely, i didn't see us working out long term.

that thought hit me a couple weeks ago, so i didn't think i should waste anymore of her time or mine.

bluesbreaker59

So this week, I broke up with my "on again off again" girlfriend of 8 months. I came to realize that even though I cared about her immensely, I didn't see us working out long term. That thought hit me a couple weeks ago, so I didn't think I should waste anymore of her time or mine. We had lots of fun together, and she has helped me alot in filling a void left by my Dub family. She has been there for me when I got DF'd, when I went through the committees, etc. We had lots of good times, but also, quite a few bad ones as well. In order to not hurt her feelings, I never told her the real reason I was breaking up with her...

This week, I did the unthinkable, and I actually cheated on her, I knew our relationship was over anyway, and knew I was going to break up with her. The girl that I cheated on her with has been a good friend of mine for a long time. Basically this woman, is who I've really wanted to be with for a good long while. But she had insisted on being friends only, then she came over the other night and we had a great time, listening to music and drinking some wine, and just hanging out. She admitted to me that she really wanted to have a relationship with me. I was shocked, and flattered at the same time. I won't bore you with the other details...

So how does one get past this??? I've never cheated before, and feel like an asshole, for doing it. I broke up with my former girlfriend yesterday, and it hurt her terribly that I ended our relationship. I hated seeing her cry, but I knew it was the right thing to do, because even without the other woman in the picture, I was going to break up with her. It just sucks ending relationships, I hate doing it.

I've had no appetite, been sick to my stomach, etc., since it happened. Feels worse than my divorce, when I found out my ex was cheating on me.

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* 3 New Oklahoma Posters to JWD *

by horrible life in

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dubldipd okiesooner1966 sooner7nc.

count them.

3 new posters, all originally from oklahoma.

bluesbreaker59

Welcome!!!

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Slowly killing myself

by 5thGeneration in

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just got back from the doctor and he was alarmed at my liver function test.

he sent me for an ultrasound of my liver and i'm being tested for hep.. problem:.

my drinking way too much is because i have a hard time dealing with wanting to leave the 'truth' but can't.

bluesbreaker59

5th,

I've had more than a few battles with alcohol, I still fight it, but its much better. However, I had some friends that went through it too, and helped me out. Here is what helped me:

Started working out (3 times per week)
Started drinking nothing but water and iced tea (no pop or milk either)
Started devoting all my free time to my hobbies (playing guitar)
Find a really good group of supportive friends that you can trust

This worked for me after my divorce. I still battle whiskey, but that's the only alcohol I enjoy too. When I really want to drink, I don't drink a shot or two, I drink a 5th or two... My doc, put me on stress meds too, Xanax, and that helps me a lot. But more than anything just stay busy, don't isolate yourself with a bottle, and STAY OUT OF BARS!!! I had to stay away from bars for 3 months to beat mine.

Good luck man, it won't be easy, but YOU CAN do it

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Georgia apostates... we have enough for a fest.

by dawg in

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ok< i've pm everyone that is from georgia that may want to get together.... will everyone pitch in and help set a date?

bluesbreaker59

Dammit!!! I wished I was going down to my mom's over the holidays, but I'm not, she is coming up here. Next spring though, I'll be in Georgia again, and I can't wait, I love it down there.

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Will this Christmas be your first one?

by lfcviking in

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ok so its only october so maybe this is a bit early.

but for me this is my 2nd year out of the org and i am looking forward to celebrating it again this year just like last year.. isn't it geat that we can join in with this celebration with the rest of the participating world!.

and no guilt feelings of being involved in a pagan celebration, over-indulging a bit, getting drunk a bit and enjoying yourself.. will this year's christmas be a first one for some people here since they have left the org?.

bluesbreaker59

Yeah, it'll be my first. Still haven't decided what to do. After my own INDEPENDENT research, I still don't agree with the "roots of Christmas". However, no one seems to give a rip about that, and no one seems to pay much attention to the religious aspects of it. Seems to me, they just use it as a day to give gifts, and get together with family. My other problem is the getting gifts, I'm broke as shit, and have a decent sized family, so I'm not sure how that works. I'll definitely go to dinner, just like I'm going to Thanksgiving dinner with my mom's family, like I always have, even as a Dub.

Its all very confusing to me, and I'm not totally sure I'm comfortable with it. I may however go buy some lights, just because I always thought they looked really pretty.