I felt very angry several years after I left the JW cult. I was mad when I left in 2003, but by 2006 and 2007 my anger intensified when I learned of the child abuse cases the WT Society was hiding from the public and then learned that WT leaders entire motives have been about pulling a scam or wool over JW's eyes and the public in order to profit financially.
I still get angry- but I don't let it consume my life. I channel my energies into music, even writing songs about my JW cult experience and try to assist others to move on in a positive way in life. I actually have a deep and abiding feeling of relief, curiously enough - that because of the whole thing being a scam I no longer live in fear or guilt due to the misinformation and false promises the WT Society tries to capture people with. It frees me to go live my life HOW I want without anything holding me back anymore. The big bad dream is not true. No such thing as " Armageddon " or " end of the world " - so I actually find that really freeing !
I have no feelings of " sadness " over there not being a " paradise " because years before I exited the Witnesses I feel that within myself I actually stopped believing in it- so putting two and two together after I actually got out - it all started making sense to me about the deception the WT Society was pulling over on people all these years. Cherish your freedom of mind people ! It's the unwitting " gift " that we possess that the WT Society was unable to take away from us ! It's priceless