Hiya Grace,
Welcome. Hopefully you'll learn to take the good with the bad here. I'm still working on that one myself. I am glad to hear that your are on your way to recovery. We are here for you when you are ready.
I know exactly what you mean about the Org. not being there when it isn't to their advantage. I evperienced that first hand plenty of times too. So unloving. I pray that you will not desert all faith because of them. They are masters at making people stumble. In Christ, dj