you are right nathan....... i do know however, how the "organization works",,,,,,, and what kind of "fruits" it produces because of that....... i almost committed suicide myself........ the P.O. in my last congregation was a real doozey..... he was devouring the whole congregation,(literally).........he was a pioneer elder..........and had connections to the big boys in brooklyn...... he was unstoppable........ he was so harsh, he had to give talk after talk about being submissive to the lead, and stop murmuring..........meanwhile, he was involved in some serious scams..........but he got everyone to shut up.... lots of people queitly changed congregations....... especially elders.....