I'm a 30 years old women. I was witness for about 11 years and left them 3 years ago. It's been a very hard time to get used to the reality. I came out being very nave and made a lot of mistakes trusting man and women. Now I watch more people, don't trust them quickly, but I used to protect a lot myself from people and so many times I feel very lonly. I realized that the way I'm it's why I could belonged so good to witness, because I've strong values that I really appreciate. First, I thought I could ignore them and do what I thought I wanted, but the true is that it hurted me when I did things I consider not good, do you understand me? And now I don't like people that consider sex as a toy or an object to use and to get selfish pleasure. But there are a lot of that kind of people. I can't judge them, and the fact is that I talked to them, but try to avoid them, because it's hurts me a lot to hear about their lifes. That's why sometimes I miss the witness and the time I spent there, because I miss the spiritual I used to read and the fact that I could find people that thinks and act like me. I consider the possibility to get back to them, but one of the reason I left is that I've my doubts that there's only one truth and salvation. In fact before I left I asked this question to the elders, told them that I wasn't sure and they gave the answer: "What if this isn't the truth? Don't respond me... this is the best thing we can have." Of course this answer didn't satified me. When I left I read the book Crisis of Consiousness of Raymond Franz and got a sorprized of the witness' history. So this year I wrote a letter to Brooklyn and asked questions about what they hide. I didn't attack them, in fact I respect them anyway, but they forward my letter to my country and the branch office of my country respond me, telling me that I could ask them an appointment with them to respond my questions. I got dissapointment of this. I consider the possibility to write Brooklyn again... I know that my lonlyness won't solve getting back to them, because in fact I really felt lonly there, but there's some spiritual food I like and more chances to know maybe a good man and friends. But to belong them I've to be sure of everything. If not I can't go back. But if there is no one truth I don't know how to find friends, to feel less lonly, to find someone to love... any thought please?
Thanks,
danidancer
