Hi Cari!
I've gone thru similar experiences as you have. The whole school thing and not having friends...totally me when I was a Freshy, then in my Sophomore yr I started making friends, but my dad claimed I was in "the wrong crowd" which was untrue. I never went to a party, did anything w/guys or any drugs...etc. He pulled me out of school in the middle of my Junior yr and I started Homeschooling. I only did it for a yr b/c I had to start all over from Freshman yr. And my dad made me go out in service during the day. Now I'm struggling to get my GED. I'll be 18 this Sunday, and I'm going to celebrate it!! (haven't celebrated it since I was 6).
I haven't been to a meeting in over 5 months, my parents are JW's and don't talk to me-they think I made up a story of what I told them had happened to me when I was younger (I was molested by my step JW brother), and my parents said I moved out for attention. They told my sister that now I can do what I want, and they still talk to my stepbro who molested me. Which infuriates me, seeing how I only told them about the molesting 5 months ago. (b4 I moved out).
Anyways, I have only one true JW friend who has kept in contact. I'm not DF'd or DA....it's screwed up how they treat you. Now I'm just trying to get back on my feet and live for myself.
Just thought you should know that there are many out there just like you. Some younger, some older...we all have had experiences that have proven detrimental. But on this board, we can help support you and offer sound advice, along with our own experiences.
Good to see another newbie on the board. Take care.
~Boo
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Greetings from Newbie
by c5 inmy name is cari.
i am fairly new here.
here is my story.. i was "raised in the truth".
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Tornado almost got me yesterday :(
by bboyneko ingeez, this is friggin maryland, we never get tornados..anyway at around 5:30pm (quittin time at work) i got notified that a tornado had touched down in college park, (my college, university of maryland college park) and had killed 2 people already and was headed directly in our path, it would arrive in like 10 minutes.. i went outside and it was black..the funny thing was you could see very clearly where the black ended and see clear sky right after that border.
the clouds where movin fast.
i talked to saffron online and told her to grab the kitty cats and head for a basement.
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I live in Michigan and we get really bad storms here too. A couple weeks ago I saw lightning strike a little ways away, but it was the closest I've ever been to a lightning strike. The thunder came as as soon as I saw the bolt and I got chills up my spine-the whole house shook. I've also been in a couple areas where tornadoes touched down around us. I love storms (I've always wanted to chase a tornado), but I have much respect for the forces of nature. I'm glad to hear you made it out ok.
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should I or shouldn't I??
by babyboo ini've been presented a rather amusing and hard decision..... first of all, my so-called best friend "stina" (a jw) told my other jw friend "amber" that she stopped talking to me a while ago b/c i wasn't attending meetings.
now, i could understand if i was df'd or da, b/c her parents would tell her not to, but that just isn't the case.
i simply stopped attending after i moved out of my parents house.
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I've been presented a rather amusing and hard decision....
First of all, my so-called best friend "Stina" (a JW) told my other JW friend "Amber" that she stopped talking to me a while ago b/c I wasn't attending meetings. Now, I could understand if I was DF'd or DA, b/c her parents would tell her not to, but that just isn't the case. I simply stopped attending after I moved out of my parents house.
Anyways, my friend Amber told me that Stina is going through a phase where she thinks she's holier than thou, b/c she had started pioneering. So basically I'm just gonna say "screw it" and not even bother to hold on to my friendship w/Stina anymore-I've tried for the past 5 months....
Well, Amber is 18 and is getting married in 3 weeks. I told Amber that I thought she was too young-I shared with her my opinion, but also told her that being a true friend; I'm happy for her, and will support her and her decision. I'm also friends with the guy she is marrying. They both said that they miss me (they live in AZ and now I'm in MI) and they offered me a plane ticket to fly out so I could be at the wedding. Well, Amber told me that Stina and our other friend "Nellie" (Stina and Nellie are sisters) both told Amber that they don't want to be in her wedding. They also had their dad tell Ambers' dad not to even send an invitation b/c they don't want anything to do with them. Now Nellie and Stinas' dad is an elder, along with Ambers' dad. I personally think that it's screwed up how their treating one another. Amber hasn't done anything wrong-she's just making a decision to get married at a young age. She's still a witness....
Anyways, I told Amber that I would still go to her wedding (she wants me in it, but I don't have a dress). The thing is, I don't know if I will be able to make it out there. But if I can, I told Amber to not even tell any of our friends. Stina claimed that she missed me, but now isn't talking to me and isn't going to the wedding.
So what I'm thinking about doing, is just flying out there, going to the wedding, and if I don't see anyone at the wedding; than I wont see them at all. I'm not going to give Stina the time of day or all my other friends who have cut me off and erased me from their friend list. Do you think that it's a good decision? Should I just blow everyone off, except for the people who I see at the wedding? -
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anyone into rap music?
by babyboo ini was just wondering if anyone has heard dmx's new song "we right here", and also ja rules new hit "livin it up"....their my fav artists...ja and i are secretly "involved" right now....(but don't tell nobody).
now, ja's my boy, but that song w/j.lo has got to go!.
and i want to know if anyone thinks fabolous is gonna stay around....i kept tellin everyone he's gonna be hot-the next one to blow it up....damn it feels good to be right.. get @ me.. ~boo.
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Thanks Tatiana, I've been looking up songs to download off of this one site and burn on a cd.
Has anyone heard D12's new album...that shit is funny. My bro went to HS with him, and another friend of ours used to rap with him, he has a home video of them rapping in his downstairs basement. It's pretty crazy.
Has anyone seen the Bubba Sparxxx video "ugly"? The video is funny but at the same time scares me....I'm afraid I might get nightmares if I see it b4 bed.... :)
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anyone into rap music?
by babyboo ini was just wondering if anyone has heard dmx's new song "we right here", and also ja rules new hit "livin it up"....their my fav artists...ja and i are secretly "involved" right now....(but don't tell nobody).
now, ja's my boy, but that song w/j.lo has got to go!.
and i want to know if anyone thinks fabolous is gonna stay around....i kept tellin everyone he's gonna be hot-the next one to blow it up....damn it feels good to be right.. get @ me.. ~boo.
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Well, I'm into alot of different types of music...I just grew up on mostly rap since I had 2 older brothers.
When I was about 8 or so, I use to listen and sing along with Sirmixalots' song, "Baby got back"...hehehe...and of course Pac, Warren G...u know.
Right now, I love Pac, Bone Thugs, Nelly, Jay-Z, Brotha Lynch Hung, Trina, Ja, DMX, Snoops' old School (ex: Gin and Juice) etc...And yes, I knew about Ja Rule being a JW and his mom....(3:36)As far as other types of music, I love R&B; Jon B, Ginuwine, 112, Jagged Edge, the list goes on...
I have another question:
There's an old School song that is one of my favs, but I don't know who sings it. I think it's called "I wanna be your man" it has that computer voice in it...anyone know what I'm talking about? Thanks for the help.
1luv
~BooBlack Man: Hey-u in Detroit?? Right now I'm at my bro's off of 7 mile. Where u at?
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anyone into rap music?
by babyboo ini was just wondering if anyone has heard dmx's new song "we right here", and also ja rules new hit "livin it up"....their my fav artists...ja and i are secretly "involved" right now....(but don't tell nobody).
now, ja's my boy, but that song w/j.lo has got to go!.
and i want to know if anyone thinks fabolous is gonna stay around....i kept tellin everyone he's gonna be hot-the next one to blow it up....damn it feels good to be right.. get @ me.. ~boo.
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I was just wondering if anyone has heard DMX's new song "we right here", and also Ja Rules new hit "Livin it up"....their my fav artists...Ja and I are secretly "involved" right now....(but don't tell nobody). Now, Ja's my boy, but that song w/J.Lo has got to go!
And I want to know if anyone thinks Fabolous is gonna stay around....I kept tellin everyone he's gonna be hot-the next one to blow it up....damn it feels good to be right.
get @ me.
~Boo
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To Babyboo
by finalcall inhello babyboo.
i was a jw for 38 years and was blind to many of the things that go on inside.
i never really began to see or acknowledge these things until i was on my way out.
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To all who have responded...thank you, for it is much appreciated.
For FrightMare, I WAS in a screwed up congregation...as well as all the others I've been to. I've lived in MI and also across the Country in AZ, and they are all the same. They all have their problems-yes, but certainly shouldn't to the extent that they do. My parents actually made us move out of the cong we were in b/c too many were "falling out" and not attending.
Now, I'm not just turning my back on the religion, but I AM questioning it and wanting to find out what I believe is "the Truth" It has been especially difficult for me when my own parents give up on me and call me a liar for the things that I told them that had happened in my life. I'm trying to find somewhere in my heart to forgive them, and also the people in the congs in AZ, as well as in MI, who have stopped talking to me and started ridiculing.
I can understand your defensiveness on the religion, b/c (still being a witness) I too get defensive at others' remarks, even though I have my own dislikes towards them.
Please allow others to freely express their opinions and thoughts b/c I'm welcoming everyone's POV on this subject. If you haven't read my message on this board...it's on one of the pages...I titled it "inactive for 5 months...confused!" Please take the time out to read it to better understand the situation I'm in.
Ta Ta 4 now...
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inactive for 5 months...confused!
by babyboo ina little about me: i'm a 17 yr old femme-i'll be 18 the 30th of this month.
and yes, i'm going to celebrate it.
i haven't celebrated it since i was 6. i have 2 older sisters, an older brother, and a younger brother.
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Farkel...I do have some questions, but I asked if there were any JW's on here so that I COULD talk to them and ask them. I'm looking for at least some encouragement. I know that I myself being a witness and knowing many people also in this religion who ARE actually genuine, maybe I could talk to some of them. Not all of them are like my family...and every religion has people like that. Thank you for replying.
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inactive for 5 months...confused!
by babyboo ina little about me: i'm a 17 yr old femme-i'll be 18 the 30th of this month.
and yes, i'm going to celebrate it.
i haven't celebrated it since i was 6. i have 2 older sisters, an older brother, and a younger brother.
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BTW-my big brother was kicked out b/c of our stepmom also. For dumb reasons, one was b/c he smoked...she got in his face about it, so he said screw it and left. She was psychotic (did I spell that correctly?)
My 2 sisters moved out b4 they lived with my dad and stepmom. Our mom was an alcoholic and would leave us everywhere..at bars, inside cars...etc. My mom tried killing my sister by choking her on my bed on night. My sisters just got fed up with it and couldn't deal with her anymore. They had to take my dad off to the side and tell him what was going on b/c he was divorced to her and didn't know what was happening.
To Cornish-no I'm sorry, I'm not the same person whom u talked with b4.
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inactive for 5 months...confused!
by babyboo ina little about me: i'm a 17 yr old femme-i'll be 18 the 30th of this month.
and yes, i'm going to celebrate it.
i haven't celebrated it since i was 6. i have 2 older sisters, an older brother, and a younger brother.
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hello Larc. Yes u are right-I was sexually molested by my stepbrother. My stepmoms' son-that is why she didn't believe me...he was about 17 when he did it, I was 7. He molested me until I was about 11. He was also supposed to be a witness. I don't like telling people that b/c they start thinking alot of JW's are bad-which isn't true. He's gotten in trouble for something else last yr and was DF'd, but got reinstated. Now he knows that I told on him. All of my siblings want to kill him. And just recently, his wife (my step sis-in-law) called me and started talking about us working things out so we could be a family. No way in hell is that going to happen.
Anyways, I was really depressed-went on anti-depressants for it. I also started cutting myself, but my boyfriend at the time found out, and I stopped. I had also started throwing things up after I had eaten. But I've worked that out now. I felt very used, betrayed, and worthless.
Now I'm just trying to deal with everything-the fact that I have parents that don't want anything to do with me, my religion, and now I'm trying to get my GED, b/c I had pulled out of school. I'm just thankful that I had my brothers and sister around to help me. Otherwise I more than likely wouldn't be here today.
Thank you for your understanding, u along with everyone else have really made me feel welcome. It's almost like recovery group sessions...hehe