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prophecor
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by redhotchilipepper incandidlynuts-she's our girl!!!!!!
go candy!!
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Do you become empty inside after leaveing the witness's?
by PinTail ini find myself feeling empty inside sense drifting away after my being shuned, and my divorce from my wife who was a witness, and after my daughter had been molested by a stupid brother in the hall that my ex-wife started living with after my becoming disabled.
i am newly married now to a good women who is not a witness, but she is honest and kind to me and understands what i have been through, but still i feel a empty somewhere in side of me.
of note during this time of pain, i fell hit my head and lost a major portion of my brain which left me disabled, and very emotional at times feeling like all is lost, i just can't throw it.
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prophecor
Sorry for being so rude and leaving in the middle of what I was saying.
It was a moment where I had to quickly decide whether I was going to continue to sink and sulk in my uncomfortable, unsettled feelings, or put my wings on and make the best of a bad situation, I chose the latter.
It was a choice between going to my mother in laws home to assist in putting up the Christmas Tree and all the trimmings, or stay here on line or run the PS2 all night, I wasn't in a festive mood and that's what's oh so wrong with the way I respond to many things. If I can't see how the best of a situation may work itself in my favor, if I can't see a guaranteed good time of getting something out of it, then I often choose to stay in my box where I know what's going to happen. I can't predict that I will enjoy myself, maybe, if I get out of my own way. As it's happened, I'm so glad that I went.
My mother in law, who's 78 years of age, had been working thru getting everything prepared, the food, the tree, the lights. We as a rule have gone down there over the years to assist. This year I wasn't feeling it at all, my wife pleaded with me to the point of near tears to break away from my depressive moment so that she wouldn't be alone in that situation. It was a moment as was writing in this thread earlier and it was either go now and get over it, or stay and stew in your own box.
As it would happen, my mother in law passed out during the eventful evening, 911 was called and she was taken to the hospital, she has been suffering from vertigo and can get dizzy and pass out from time to time. She was released from the emergency room against medical advice, but I brought her back, her and my wife, and hopefully we won't have anymore episodes over the weekend.
I would have felt even more miserable had I stayed here and that happened, as opposed to my being there to assist in that situation.
But it's all part of the hang up I can have when not wanting to venture out, spread my wings, and go take on the world. Little steps though, they get me thru, and then other times, I have to take gigantic leaps of faith, like tonite. I was blessed in being there.
At the close of the evening, having gotten the tree up, I allowed myself to actually enjoy myself and have a good time, we looked at ancient photographs of the times when my mother in law was in her prime, looking back at her history, she opened up, I opened up, and it was truly a wonderful set of moments that will make me more appreciative of this time of the year. That it's not about me all the time, but about, what is it I can do for someone else. There was room for everyone to be themselves, and be OK, despite my struggles.
Merry Christmas Everyone
Much Love & Respect 2 U All
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Do you become empty inside after leaveing the witness's?
by PinTail ini find myself feeling empty inside sense drifting away after my being shuned, and my divorce from my wife who was a witness, and after my daughter had been molested by a stupid brother in the hall that my ex-wife started living with after my becoming disabled.
i am newly married now to a good women who is not a witness, but she is honest and kind to me and understands what i have been through, but still i feel a empty somewhere in side of me.
of note during this time of pain, i fell hit my head and lost a major portion of my brain which left me disabled, and very emotional at times feeling like all is lost, i just can't throw it.
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prophecor
Walter, whatcha' goin thru, same is here as for me, being so conditioned to having no contact with the outside world, I can become pretty reclusive. The conditioning makes me think it's done on purpose, how you gonna' leave when you have no structured support system underneath you to take the sting out of suddenly being left to your own devices. There's no one there to cover you. You can find yourself held hostage in a socially seperated vacuum.
I have found, however, that the world has so much to offer, and everyone not of JWO is not of the devil!!! Much help has been brought to me thru the hands of persons I would have normally kept off at a distance, were it not for the...TO BE CONTINUED
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Do you become empty inside after leaveing the witness's?
by PinTail ini find myself feeling empty inside sense drifting away after my being shuned, and my divorce from my wife who was a witness, and after my daughter had been molested by a stupid brother in the hall that my ex-wife started living with after my becoming disabled.
i am newly married now to a good women who is not a witness, but she is honest and kind to me and understands what i have been through, but still i feel a empty somewhere in side of me.
of note during this time of pain, i fell hit my head and lost a major portion of my brain which left me disabled, and very emotional at times feeling like all is lost, i just can't throw it.
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prophecor
Hey Shane, you sound a little down. I still have moments of despair, but I struggle everyday to get rid of them. It's not easy leaving the Watchtower, it took years before I could get my balance being on the outside.
If you've not been out long, I hope you can give yourself some time to heal, emotionally and physically. This can be an especially tough time, what with the holidays and all, it's a day to day battle though, and quite honestly for me, I have to take my days in doses of moments, minutes and sometimes hours. If I can just get around the next curve, I know pretty much that I'll be OK.
The calendar and the clock, however, have a unique way of fixing things.
Get Some Sleep
Wishing U Well
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My Christmas wish for Y'all....
by ohiocowboy ini wish everyone here a holiday filled with love, happiness, warm memories and good times.
so many of us have gone through really rough times with things that have happened in our lives, and i hope that everyone here can one day be fully healed from our pasts, so that we can go into the future happily, with full, rewarding lives, with our pasts and obstacles we have faced only being distant memories of days gone by.. i wish for a time when families join together, and not become separated or influenced by an organization, or anyone else.
this is a season of hope, and all things are possible.. wishing everyone the bestest of the best!!!.
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prophecor
Merry Christmas to you as well Ohio Cowboy, I wish for you and Yours a joyous and peaceful Holiday, as we all have much to be thankful for. To You and Yours and to all here who make this a wonderful place to share.
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I'm soooooo cold!
by Evesapple in.
another polar air day, and way too much grey.
i'm tired of being inside and my son is sick again with a virus, by the time i leave to workout it's dark outside and even colder than earlier....ooooohhhhh i just want to stay under my covers until spring..... anyone else out there surviving this cold???
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prophecor
Your opinions worth a little more than that
Keep Kozy Bem
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I'm soooooo cold!
by Evesapple in.
another polar air day, and way too much grey.
i'm tired of being inside and my son is sick again with a virus, by the time i leave to workout it's dark outside and even colder than earlier....ooooohhhhh i just want to stay under my covers until spring..... anyone else out there surviving this cold???
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prophecor
I wouldn't say crazy as much as I would say......, Gifted
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I'm soooooo cold!
by Evesapple in.
another polar air day, and way too much grey.
i'm tired of being inside and my son is sick again with a virus, by the time i leave to workout it's dark outside and even colder than earlier....ooooohhhhh i just want to stay under my covers until spring..... anyone else out there surviving this cold???
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prophecor
I Live For This Stuff !!!
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Need your help! Wedding music ideas!
by maybesbabies inok all, my lovey and i are planning for the first song of our wedding to come after our vows are spoken, the ceremony ends, and he and i are going back down the aisle and into the house.
we want everyone to follow us in order from the first row back, and we'll go in and cut the cake.
thing is, we want a song to start as we head back down the aisle.
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prophecor
For Always Atlantic Starr
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If you love me, wish me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY
by LDH ini have a picture but i don't know how to post it?!?!?.
my hubby and daughter bought me great gifts, and the three year old helped me blow out the candles and open the packages.. i am eating dicicco's pizza, my b'day dinner of choice!.
lisa
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prophecor
AGAPE2U Lisa, Know U Not, U/Still
But Heres A Cake, And Presents Too
Happy 21st 2 U
Again!