I am attracted to men.... to the touch of a man... to the love of a man... I dont lust for sex... I lust for love, affection and protection from a man.
I have been a pioneer, a ministerial servant, an elder.... but I don't have the capability of returning to such a life as a JW without the love of a man. If Jehovah has created this need, why is it condemned? If Jehovah has allowed this feeling to satisfy ones needs, why am I to be destroyed in Hamaggedon? Why does receiving love from a man feel so good, so right... so great? Why is it sin? I Just don't understand...