It was the only thing to give to me power back over my life. It was an intensive search for what has been missing as well as help in filling the holes of my soul. Things that I had not been allowed to know regarding the inside depths of the organisation. I was shocked. I was appalled.
My faith in the WTB&TS had to be destroyed as I knew they were the only true religion in the entire universe. To have that kind of belief, it took something with the psychological equivalent of an atomic bomb, to destroy all the illusions. It took a huge chunk of my strength, but I was led to get up from that experience, a lot stronger human being.