So many comments on this thread gave me a lump in my throat. 144,001, I really feel what you are saying!
Bitterness ,,, when it is present, I can feel it eating at me, like an acid. It's good to douse it with a big dollop of joy, so I do something that will make me laugh, or hug a friend. Or I get both fixes in one, and plat 'fetch' with my kitten, Blue!
I got to thinking, add the experience of having your abuse covered up, and you have been betrayed by your parents, the elders, "J*****ah ~ where is a child to turn, when all else are ruled by Satan? How does one begin to heal? (rhetorical questions) What if you could never believe in *it* in the first place because of this very dichotomy, and so you always
thought believed, from the time you were a small child, that you were cursed? You spent your life wishing that you were born into the wrong family, and someone would come and rescue you.
A primer on how to believe in nothing and no one. The life story of a "born in".
No one can appreciate life like someone who was never allowed to have one.
Congratulations,,, we can have one now, because we are free from the Tower.
**Nothing succeeds like success.**
(okay, that was a bit dramatic, but, I couldn't help myself)