Hi again Totally Lost,
Your last post makes me believe that you are starting to take more control and not feeling quite so totally lost as you were when you first came here.
I am so glad that you have somewhere where you can go and take a breather, take a break away from all the tension and concentrate on yourself. It sounds as though you have good support in your parents - don't feel like you are 'burdening' them with your problems though - I would hope in years to come that if any of my kids came to me in a similar situation (God forbid..) that I would not see it as a burden, just part of being a good parent.
I hope you find some happiness in your life, you certainly deserve it after all this. Take care and safe travelling.